for those of you who cared i left to go pick jeff up and ended up hitting the wall pretty hard at his house, throwing up, falling down, the whole thing. thats why i never came back, well that and the fact that i knew i had no chance of hitting it off with any girl there so yea ( Read more... )

so its been almost 2weeks since i've started and once i got past that 1st bad week the job is actualy ok.i had a whole explanation of how i'm feeling better and am noticing that i'm getting stronger but i'll just leave it at that. i read my last couple of posts and i'm a retard there is no reason i should have felt that strongly about her in such a ( Read more... )

so if u cant figure out by now she wants nothing to do with me.becuase i lost my temper a lil bit for no reason on monday, i yelled at her on aim a couple sentances. she said that i scared her and i have a horrid temper and i need to get help.i tried explaining to her that i was jus venting and she knows i would NEVER hurt her. well fuck u to adam ( Read more... )

i'd like once in my life to keep someone happy, not just for a day or two but always.i got to staring at the marks on my arm and remebered why their there, this just dull thud i feel...its not a good thing. i guess i will just nvr change, i want to be with someone so much i end up driving them away by doing my best to make them happy.and of course ( Read more... )

well chelsey came and visited, i have to admit no matter how calm i tried to act i was so happy to see her. the only shitty thing is she had to leave early because of RA shit =/ . we really didnt talk as much as i was hoping for but none the less it was a awsome time.she really is great. i mean i know i can trust her but i'm always going to be kind ( Read more... )

so work is work i guess. i've put in 2 11+ hr days and that sucks. the nice thing is i can definatly notice i'm getting in better shape, just within the week.i've only lost like 5 lbs but i had to run from the shop to the warehouse the other day because i missed the truck, i ran it in about 8min and i wasnt that out of breath. just a couple weeks ( Read more... )

so i've started my new job, and i must say entering the world of physical labor has been a kick in my ass. to add to the fact that my toe goes numb after a couple hours i feel beat every day.its not that bad thought its pretty simple mentaly...lift box...put down box...oogle at pretty women who happen to walk by.then there is the fact that i have ( Read more... )

all i can say is there is some days i love being alive and days that i dont.somedays i love my friends and some days i dont. some days i love the internet and some days i dont.

well i've rediscovered the joys of drinking.got pretty drunk friday and sat night. its been pretty fun, last night ended with me going solo and getting groceries from winco at about 2am.of course i had ment to get stuff that would last me awhile...and i wake up this morning and realize i got a big bag of captin crunch,milk and one of those 6 packs ( Read more... )

well i fucked my comp up and had to pay to get it fixed....lesson learned...stay out of BIOS.i've got a new job now with a moving company, it pays 9 but i actualy get to workout and not sit around all day so its very much worth it.other than that not much is new. same ole. 9 months and counting!!! i'm thinking about going back into the Marine ( Read more... )