so last night i was at rich's house. it was awsome we went in his hot tube. it was killer. so realaxing. and we went inside and ate muffines. they were good too. and then we went down to his new room and cuddled.i ended up falling asleep in his arms. it was awsome. i really love him. when i woke up i reall ydidnt want to leave, but i had to go ( Read more... )

so, i dont know what caused it but i was definetly depressed this morning. i dont even know the moment that i acctually snaped out of it , but i did. at somepoint during art class. and then i was fine. i worked on my art stuff. i spent time with rich. (who i love) and i went to drama, and did some directing. then greg asked me to help him direct ( Read more... )

i dont feel well today. i dont know what it is. its not that i feel sick, or that ive got the flu or a cold. i just dont feel...... well. i cant seem to snap out of it. i just mope about like a ghost. its pathetic really. i dont know whats bothering me. the space bar on this computor doesnt work very well. thats kinda annoying. i am going to ( Read more... )

so yesterday i picked up the newest addition to the family. her name is shock. she is absolutly adorable and oh i love her. she kept me up last night. but thats okay. she pooed on my bed tonight. and thats is still kinda okay. i am super mad, but shes really cute and tiny and doest really know better. here... i'll start at the beggining ( Read more... )

I hate you ( Read more... )

so yeah. family is such a fucked up thing. growing up i always thought i had the perfect family. we werent broken, my parents were happily married, and my dad went to work every morning, mom stayed home to take care of the kids, dad came home and my brother and i would greet him at the door. then we would sit down and eat dinner together. like a ( Read more... )

so there we go. i now know why the glands in my neck are the size of golf balls. and its not herpes. i have my wisdom teeth coming in. not that they are going to make me any smarter or wiser just crankier. i am in so much pain right now i just lie in bed and ball my eyes out. it hurts so much aaah. but!!! i have found the one food i can bare to ( Read more... )

so on saturday night my boyfriend called to tell me that we couldnt see eachother unless i wanted to tag along with his friends to auqua fest. at first i said no cuz the kids that he was going with are complete ASSES and i dont like them. but then i thought why not. some of my friends suck and he still hangs out with us so i agreed to go. the ( Read more... )

does anyone else feel as though their life is a movie, like they arent living it but standing outside and watching everything happen. and theres nothing you can do to change any of the events that are taking place. i feel as though my life is taking place in a fish bowl, and i am on the outside, looking into the bubble of my life trying to fignure ( Read more... )

beauty is a rediculous thing ( Read more... )