I took a nap today.
And I had a dream.

You weren't there.
I was alone.
It wasn't very fun.
I was scared.
I was lost.
Everything around me
made no sense at all.

That's how it would be
if anything bad happened
between us...

I remember in my dream
there was a building.
You were in the building,
I just knew you were.
I don't know why,
but you were there.
I tried to get ( Read more... )

Here's a little something I wrote a few nights ago before I fell asleep, as I do most nights:

You're sad,
and I don't know
how to help you
feel better.
I hate seeing
you this way.
I feel like
when you're sad,
I'm not doing my job.
I feel like I'm
not making you happy.
I wish I could do
something to make
you feel better,
but I don't
think I can,
and that really ( Read more... )

Rockfalls homecoming tomorrow.
I'm really excited about it.
I get to see you,
and I love when that happens.
I need to come up with
a pack of cigarettes
for tomorrow night, though...
I have no idea how I'm
going to do that.
I'm such a poor ass.

Ugh.
Anyway...

Oh, I watched RENT last night.
And I wrote you another letter.
Yeah, yeah,
I know I write 75481943 ( Read more... )

That nightmare
just wont
leave me.
But is it strange
if I say
that I don't want it to?
I mean...
I see you.
I really see you
in all your beauty
in those dreams.
So I guess
I don't want those
nightmares to come,
but I want you
to stay in my dreams.
I'm tired of waking up in tears.

I'm positive
that you are
my life.
You have my
heart in your hands.
And I really
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Hey. YOU. Yes, YOU.
My boyfriend isn't the one who turned me into a cold heartless bitch. It was you.

Die.

You're the one who made me go all antisocial last year.
You're the one who made me hurt myself.
And I'm glad I don't have to talk to you anymore.

Hey, Miss Murder, can I make beauty stay if I take my life?

&& All I feel is loathing.

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay.

I am thinking it's a sign ( Read more... )