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Welcome to the End
Old pictures on my wall,
tear 'em down, watch 'em fall.
The sound of the tape tearing,
it's what I have been fearing.
Tears stream down my face,
I can't keep up in this race.
It often crosses my mind;
death, the irreversable fine.
Why'd you do it?
Let her rule you through it?
You're your own being,
but instead, she's your queen.
If I controlled the future and ( Read more... ) -
Resolved?
Who am I trying to fool? Did I really think I'd drop it so easily? They speak a few magic words and suddenly the world is set back in motion? I was under a spell for a little while, but it's worn off ( Read more... ) -
I'm Through Playing With You
There's only so much I can take. I can only play the game your way for so long. You treat me unfairly and I am the one apologizing. You tear out my heart, and I am the one trying to make up to you ( Read more... ) -
I Tried, But the Devil Took Hold
Sabbath, April 3rd. I was on the schedule to do the Scripture Reading at church, so I stood alone and practiced, only interacting when a person walked in the front door. I was the Door Greeting that day, as well, so it was my duty to speak kindly with them. At this point, my temper was under control and I was able to force a smile so as to satisfy ( Read more... ) -
Who do you think you are?
I wish I had the courage to send this to Rhonda Poff, I honestly do. But for now, I shall type out my fury on this public website where my friends can tell me I am being foolish, or that my anger is justified. Be honest, everyone. I don't like being so angry, and if I am being foolish, then let me know! You'd be doing me a favor...
Dear Rhonda Poff,
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Value of a Promise
I often wonder what the value of a promise is. To me, it's something to both live and die for. I would sooner accept death than break a promise and I saw no reason to live if promises made to me were not kept. But it seems not everyone shares my views on such matters, as unfortunate as it is.
I finally found someone who I trusted with all my heart ( Read more... ) -
My Testimony
Who would have guessed the question “Want to go to a vegetarian buffet?” could be such a life altering question. God used my gluttonous selfishness to His own advantage, knowing I couldn’t turn down such an offer. Hearing the sermon from the pastor up front was torturous at first; ‘not worth the buffet’ I remarked cruelly under my ( Read more... ) -
On Being Saved
Never have I felt as I do now. Beyond butterflies in the stomach and beyond words. Of course, never have I made such a decision. This choice will change so many things. As this Sabbath approaches, I find myself second guessing, but I quickly push those fears away. I am getting baptized ( Read more... ) -
Do you want to go to the emergency room?
You ever had an experience that changed your life? I've had many, but none so scary as the morning of November 14th. I awoke at a late time for a regular day, but early for my Sabbaths. It was 6:30AM (on a regular day I get up at 5:30 and on Sabbaths I remain in bed till 8:30 so that I'd have just enough time to dress and leave) when I rose from my ( Read more... )