hit by a bolt of...

[redemption_song]

something i don't know. i just realized she now knows everything. has she been reporting back to them all this time. what an invasion of privacy, pretending to be someone else to gain access to my life, my world. sleeping with the enemy that whats i did. how do these people fine me, how do they know from when they first meet me that then can easily

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[vi_monoxide]

Hey sweetie..
I don't know what the hell is going on so I guess I gotta read back a few? entries.
OR you can give me what's going on on a nutshell.
I'm sorry you are so down.. and fuck AIDA whoever she is!!

[redemption_song]

thanks darlin, oh gawd there is so much you don't know, and it would take a life time to fill you on all this shit. all you need to know is Aida is an ex of mine who aftre we stopped talking and i opened up this new LJ acct (my old one being dazed_dyke) she created a fake acct to get access to my private posts and reported back everything i said to two ppl who hate me (two ppl who used to be my best friends that she turned against me). and then one of them left a threatening message on my phone yesterday which started this whole thing. that's it in a nutshell. i have bad judgement, i pick all the wrong people. my mistakes could fill a book lol

[dragonwine]

I know what its like to be fully exposed due to the ignorant intents of others who I thought I could trust. And I also know what its like to be outed before I'm ready (that's a great avenue of revenge, but I'm glad you're bigger than that). Neither situation leaves you with a healthy mental state though.

I think Aida should be grateful that you're not as evil-hearted as she has proved she is. I'm really sorry for the lack of maturity and respect that she obviously possesses. If the harassment escalates, don't fail to contact the proper authorities and/or switch your number. You're a grown woman full of ambitions and goals that you're trying to fulfill in life - you don't have time to continue to revisit the hurt that your ex caused or cater to the whims of ppl with childish mentalities.

[redemption_song]

I don't know what i did to deserve meeting you (even if it is only online), but i'm glad i did. u make me feel less insane. thank you

[fusesburning]

you need to hold onto your current mentality: do NOT stoop to her level. you are too good for that.

and i'm still offering free ass-whoopings

hang in there, hon *hugs*

[slow_mo_panda]

You didn't do anything, but I know how you feel. My mom uses me to get onto my computer by threatening me and when she is on my computer, she goes through my web bookmarks and reads my LJ (even my userinfo is something she shouldn't know!) And she has a hissy fit and threatens me even more if I don't let her use my computer while I am gone for days.

An observation...

[kissthisfem]

I have a daughter that is nearly 19. I would never go on to any of her blogs..here or on MySpace or look at her mail. Never.

I cannot imagine how invaded you must feel. Everyone deserves a safe space. Especially from one's mother!

If you two have open communication, as my daughter an I do, then she should not have to 'peek' into your private life.

Please learn from this. When you have a child remember to always speak openly and communicate. But remember how it feels when you have something private, not bad but PRIVATE and to have that part of your life invaded.

PS. When I went to visit my daughter in the States in May we went and had our yearly 'female' exams together. The doctor asked her if she wanted me to step out of the room while she was being asked some 'personal' questions. My daughter said, "Oh no! I tell my Mama everything and I want her here."

It is true. She tells me everything. Everything she needs me to know. I respect the parts of her life that she needs to keep private because I see her as an

Re: An observation...

[slow_mo_panda]

Oh, I don't think my mother needs to know who I was penpals with while I was living at my dad's house. She made a comment once :At least I don't send pictures of myself to guys who masturbate to them!" I have NO effing idea where the hell that came from, because it blew me away! I had NO such person in my life! She has been reading my mail, my journals, my emails, my computer files, everything, my whole life. She does it just to spite me. She never brings ANY of it up with me unless we get in a fight. However, once I wrote in a journal that I had stolen ONE thing from the Kmart, and she read it and asked MY SISTER if I was shoplifting! So not only is she reading my shit, she's spreading it around to the family! Only, when I post something really important, like about when her husband molested me, or how I used to be suicidal, she takes it as fiction, as me trying to get people's attention, because she thinks I have no major problems in my life ever. And when I dare to write about HER and how bad she is, she calls me a liar and a bitch

[kissthisfem]

Oy!

Major lack of respect and communication.

I am sad for you. And very sad for your mother. You two missed out on something really special like what my daughter and I have developed - mutual trust and admiration {as well as the normal amount of "You little Bitch!" "Yea? Well, it takes one to know one" mother-daughter exchanges.}

I really am sorry.

[perkyfreak29]

holy crap, what is it with the gay muslim girls. that's all I have to say...

[redemption_song]

lol tell me about it, that's twice now that they have screwed me over in huge ways... but damn it they can be soooo hot (one of my other weaknesses... what can i say, i'm just weak for girls)

[perkyfreak29]

They can be sooo hot, it's annoying! Why do you think I'meven playing with the idea of dating my ex again when she gets up here... ugh!