So today i have decided i am falling in love with no one special. meaning no one at all. god i wanna fall in love. i wanna find somebody now that im finally over jerk face. sometimes i think that the whole thing with him was just a waste of a whole year that i could have been with someone who appreciated me. hhhhmmmm. i should be doing math right ( Read more... )

so yeah. i dont even know why i am writing on here.im board and depressed and sad and i keep having these panic attacks. ive had them several times this week. i can't even go to bed. all these problems. but at least i still haven't cut myself. it'll all be ok soon. i know it. than i wont have to be sad anymore. and i wont have to deal with this ( Read more... )

So last night i had one of those mini panic attacks-i felt i was really going to have a bad one but i didn't think i was going to die like that last time- but i did want to go outside and hide by the pool i was so scared. what got it started was that i kept thinking i was skitz-i was thinking about it than i was like "oh my gosh","what if i am" ( Read more... )

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::Sorrowfully Moans:: i am so unhappy right now. i am so depressed. i donno what to do. i think when i get off of here i am just going to go to sleep. than ill be up all night though. DAMN! i wish i was with Ali-she is the only one who knows how I feel. this disease is a curse,I AM a curse. to fucking man kind-thats what i am. i wish i could have ( Read more... )

why must guys be so immature?? why can't they only have one chick on their arm??? ::cough::cough::Peter Ramos::cough::cough::. im tired of dealing with guys like this. and and NO peter-i love you but not that much! ok so stop playing games. im not an idiot and i know what you do. you so annoying and immature. god if only you read this!!!! just get ( Read more... )

So I think i am going to try to update this thing more often. though i do prefer writing in my journal where i actually have to write with pen or pencil. theres stuff in here that isnt in my handwriten journal and vise versa...i just hope i dont ever lose this stuff on here. anyways my moods have seem to be evening out since i got that medicine- ( Read more... )

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so i just got back from my appointment at Horizons-they said i might be bipolar-depressed. so now i feel like a total nut case. along with the billion other problems i have. and now i think my mom threw away all my cd's again like she did last summer cause they are "evil" im so tired of hearing that. its bullshit. i really donno what to do. ( Read more... )

oh whoppie freakin' do da!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i almost fucking died because fucking slut fat ass Victoria and her stupid white trash friends thought it would be funny to lace the pot with what i "killer drugs" so thanks to them what never was a problem with me-only smoked pot about 6 times is now an addiction to drugs i never ( Read more... )