I am totally and completely overwhelmed with and by every aspect of my life. I wake up and am immediately rushed to do what needs to be done in the short 24 hours of one day. Sickened by the thought that I may leave one stone unturned, my head swims before I lay it down to rest on my sub-par pillow ( Read more... )

im always wrong.
all i ask for is that someone care for me and only me.
for someone to have no biddies on the side.
is that really that difficult?

i need to write down lists to keep myself going ( Read more... )

i have gotten to the point where the other party in this so called "relationship" being unfaithful doesnt cross my mind in the least, even when he doesnt answer his phone. i believe this is why ive gravitated toward people of much more than "legal" age, even though i am a year and fifteen days away from that label. its so much easier to trust ( Read more... )

so trying to keep possitive is really draining me. I keep trying to convince myself that I'm okay being single. That I don't need emotional attatchment to have fun with a boy. That I can stay separated and so stay unharmed. I've been trying to fool myself for too long and my brain has finally caught up with my body ( Read more... )

Why is it that every time I try to involve myself in a boy and get into maybe one healthy relationship IN MY LIFE, they ALWAYS turn out so fucked up. I'm either cheated on, lied to, played, or cheated with, or all the rest in between. TELL ME how I always have to hear ALWAYS "who the fuck is this? who are you to be callin' my boyfriend!?" I DON'T ( Read more... )

I feel like my life is in constant motion. I always find myself working up to a deadline no matter what day of the week it is or what time of day it is. I don't know if I'm cut out to keep this going all year. It's only September 28th and I feel way in over my head. I find myself rationalizing the situation by saying "once I get aquainted with ( Read more... )

i need a boyfriend to keep me grounded. I need to stop doing whatever I'm doing, start over, be loved and love someone for real. I'm TIRED of being treated like shit.

school is so hard ( Read more... )

WELL, I owe my mom 20 bucks for texting which I was aware of and more than happy to pay. but daddy had to go on this rant that i take advantage of everything and i don't deserve anything and blah blah so i said "why don't you just let me pay you the extra money for unltd everything every month? it would be easier on everyone". My mom said it doesn' ( Read more... )