how do you know who to open up to and who to keep secrets from? How do i know that I can trust someone? what about the relationship can open up that line of communication? Family is one, but that's a given, how else do I know who to trust? I don't even trust my current best friend(s).. though I trust the girl who I haven't been best friends with in ( Read more... )

P.S. just to get this up to date.

we've been over. on my terms this time, though. i still hate my life.

I miss having two jobs. I just read over all of my entries up until the summer. I miss being so optimistic about school and life and love. I miss being able to set my priorities strait and to have a concrete list of what i want. I can't wait to get out of here.

oh lord back together. I don't know what it is that makes me wanna keep coming back, but a simple 'I'm sorry, I miss you' is enough for me to come crawling back into his arms. Things are only bad when we're away from each other. As soon as we look at each other it's like the whole world melts away. He has no problem being open and honest about me ( Read more... )

everything's gone. everything that i once thought was anything. it's sick to think that he was my definition of everything. i never thought that i'd say it about one person, but he was it. on my mind 24/7, wondering how he was, what he was doing, who he was with, just if he was happy. i didn't care if i was on his mind, him being in my head was ( Read more... )

So, why!? why do i make myself crazy? why do i over analyze every word that comes out of his mouth? why do i think everything MUST have a double meaning? why can't i just let myself be happy? You know why? because that's me being "naive." fuck "Naive" i'm happy ( Read more... )

"call me as soon as you get home. we have have have to talk. don't forget ( Read more... )

i need to lose at least 40lbs by Prom.
Think it's possible if I go to the gym every day after school?

sometimes i think my brain works backward. i get hurt, sever contact, experience new and better things, then turn back to the one that hurt me and have better experiences. I trust my heart more than my head these days and i know it's going to lead me down a horrible path, but for now I'm excited and stupid and don't care. <33

crying is never a bad thing.
crying is never a bad thing.
crying is never a bad thing.
crying is never a bad thing.
crying is never a bad thing.
crying is never a bad thing.