"and then there were four," that is the phrase that has summed up my summer thus far. four people that have either been a huge part of my life in my family or just a friend i use to briefly talked to have pasted away since i have been home from school. first it was eric dewolf, who was a kind hearted boy and even though i barely knew him and just ( Read more... )

fuck, fucking shit, ughhh cunt. i don't know what to say. how do you deal watching someone you love die. well you cry and think or whatever. honestly i have never been through this and truthfully i was not close to him when i was younger, it was only the last few years that i started to talk to him and what not. and he always talks about how proud ( Read more... )

i love and hate being home. when i am home i spend more time alone, which leads me to thinking and snooping around my room, and look at pictures and shit, which then makes me sad. ughhhhhhhhh i don't know why i can't let things go, but i guess there is a lot of people who struggle with letting things go. so goal for the summer is, let it go amanda ( Read more... )

i can't not believe my life, in three days i wrote a 5 page paper, an 8 page paper, a 3 page paper and a 2 page paper, if one were to add all that together it would add up to 18 pages!! Ah i can not believe that, that shit is crazy, but that is what i get for procrastinating. ohh well i got it all done thats all that matters right, and i feel ( Read more... )

the last three weeks are fucking ball sack america

and as i sit here and think about what to do with my life, and start to feel completely stressed out about everything, i realized that if you feel bad or stressed out like no other, you always have to remember that somewhere in this sad world that we come to live in, someone else is doing a lot worse than you. we always forever dwell on the bad ( Read more... )

as i continue to have a very connecting with myself break, i continue to think. my grandfather just moved into my house this week, because his body has giving up on him. 75 % use of his lungs are gone, he can't walk to the bathroom or even just lay in bed without being completely out of breath. and then there is my grandmother who lived with us for ( Read more... )

so I find myself here on spring break doing nothing. hanging out with no one because no one is here. and thinking, thinking about Todd Miller a rugby player at longwood, who just died today after facing brain damage from a hit in a rugby game. i never knew Todd but i saw him all the time around campus, i mean he was huge it was kinda of hard to not ( Read more... )

i miss the times we use to spend together, i miss the person i love more than anyone or anything in the whole world all the time, i miss the beach, i miss life being easy, i miss it all, when will it ever be back??

this semester has so far been as followed ( Read more... )