i dont know why you keep lying to me.

So , Sean left yesterday. I really wasn't ready to say goodbye. It still really hasn't hit me that he's gone. Even though he's emailed me from Santa Monica , and text messaged me. I just can't get my head around the fact that he's gone for 2 weeks. 2 weeks isn't really that long. But without him it's a death sentence. I want to do something ( Read more... )

i've been waiting for it to hit. hit me like a punch in stomache. 
im just not ready to say goodbye.
everyone keeps telling me that 2 weeks isnt that long, but two weeks without you is like a death sentence.
i know its all for the best, that your aunt needs help.
and that you're parents think you're going to come back this profound adult.
california ( Read more... )

looooooooooooooove
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i had a cousin fighting in iraq. three days ago a home made bomb went off underneath of him blowing his legs off just below the knees. he's alive, but emotionally he's dead. i've always been against this war, but now it means so much more to me. i cant even look at an american flag without feeling sick.

why is it that when you're happy,
truly happy. people begin appear out of nowhere.
crawling out of the woodwork, dying to get a piece of you.
this is the most messed up situation ive ever been in.

sooo from now till sunday, my life as follows ( Read more... )

for people who claim they want me to be happy.
they sure are dicks when it comes down to it.

seriously, fuck you guys.

drew and seans "valentines day , but not on valentines day" plans
1. go to lindsay with jay, bring colby her bed.
2. dinner
3. hostage life

and if im lucky, a little naked time.
fingers crossed.

today mr. micheal hamley is coming shoe/pant shopping with me.
its going to be fun.

the words slipped off my tongue and through my lips before i knew it was happened.
but i mean it.
i meant it.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.