I love You, I Mean It... (Part 2)
pairing: Kyusung, Yewon, Kisung (past), one sided Sihae
rating: PG-13
genre: drama, romance
A/N notes: this is the sequel of is fate always this cruel?
summary for this chap : Kyuhyun finally confessed... and Yesung's reaction is...
thanks to @kijwij for supporting me! ^^
previous chapter : part 1
One year after
Yesung POV
I’m waiting for my boyfriend to return from his shopping time in his bedroom. I sit on Siwon’s bed. Uhm... Siwon’s scent is so nice. It’s been a year since I have a relationship with Siwon. He is a nice guy. Too nice I think. He treat me like I’m his most precious thing in his world. I should be happy, right? But why am I like this? I like Siwon, I really do. But somehow I can't develop this feeling into love. Everytime I think about Siwon and his attention to me, my mind is always dart to Kyu. Everytime I try to love Siwon my heart is always goes to Kyu. Kyu is my bestfriend, right? And my boyfriend is Siwon. Then I should treat him like one. But why do I feel this way? I grab a photo from my wallet. A picture of me and Kyu when we were still in high school. Kyu's smile is so warm in here. But why can't I feel it again, Kyu's warmth? He rarely spends his time with me lately. I miss you... I caress our picture.
"Maybe you should break up with siwon, and confess your feeling to your bestfriend"
I look up. Huh? Donghae? When did he get in?
"You should stop doing this, you keep on hurting both of them."
"Hae, what are you talking about?"
Siwon come out of nowhere. When is my boyfriend get home?
“I’m sorry Sungie, I think he is kinda not well right now so he blabbering nonsensical things.”
“Siwon!”
Donghae looks so mad. I feel so guilty inside. Hearing Donghae’s statement just making me feel bad toward Siwon. Siwon drag Donghae out of his room.
“Let’s get out from here”
Siwon said that, closing the door and leave me alone in his room.
End of Yesung’s POV
“Hae, you shouldn’t say something like that,” Siwon said with a serious tone.
“Look, Siwon, how long are you gonna hang into this relationship? You’ve been dating with him for a year. One whole fucking year! Yet he doesn’t show anything that he loves you!” Donghae started raising his voice.
“I’m sure he loves me. He just needs more time.” Siwon answered weakly.
“How much longer does he needs? A month? One year? Your whole life?! Tell me!”
“I don’t know!!! All that I know is that I love him and he is still mine!” Siwon started raising his voice, anger flamed up.
“But his heart isn’t!”
“Donghae, enough!”
“I won’t stop this until you realize your mistake!”
“What mistake?!”
“That you stupidly in love with him and you keep on hanging in your stupid hope that he will love you back yet he loves his own bestfriend!!”
*Punch!* Siwon’s fist flew uncontrollably to Donghae’s left cheek.
Donghae so shocked with his bestfriend reaction that he didn’t even realize the corner of his lips is bleeding. Siwon just stood still while mumbling to himself oh God, what I have done...
“Hae, I’m sorry...”
Siwon tried to reach Donghae’s cheek but instead Donghae slapped his hand. Siwon widened his eyes.
“You know what, I’m sick of you. I don’t wanna hear anything more about your relationship. Don’t you ever come to me when he breaks you up.”
Donghae walked away. Once again, Donghae’s words fired up Siwon’s anger.
“I won’t ever break up with him! Note that!”
I am indeed jealous of him, that’s what Hae thought.
Yesung’s POV
Why did Donghae say that? No, I’m not in love with Kyu. Not anymore. Since the day I accepted Siwon’s feeling I have to stop thinking about my love to him. Damn it, Yesung, it has been a year! Why can’t I move on? Kyu doesn’t love me, I’m waiting for nothing. All this year I just want him to yell at me, mad at me for accepted Siwon but he congratulated me instead. Maybe he really just considering me as a friend, nothing more...
I have to stop this. Stop my stupid feeling for him. Stop my stupid and endless waiting. Stop from all of this because I’m hurting Siwon the most. I’m using him too much. Siwonnie, I’m so sorry...
End of POV
One late evening
Kyuhyun POV
I’m staying in Yesung’s apartment to ask for his help to finish up my tasks. I don’t know why but Yesung looks so different today. He looks so tired. I know that I rarely spend my time with him. It’s not that I don’t care about him but I can’t bear myself to watch him together with his boyfriend. It’s hurting me too much so I ended up avoiding him all the time.
“Yesungie, I’m sorry”
He looks up. Oh my God, his brown chocolate eyes... So beautiful..
“Huh? For what?”
“For not having much time with you”
“It’s okay, I know you are busy with your class. I understand.”
He is smiling.. So breathtaking that I hold my breath unconsciously..
Suddenly, my mind flew back to the moment when I met Kibum. Did he tell me the truth? But why did he accept Siwon’s feeling? He supposed to reject him if he really loves me. But he hesitated when he said he doesn’t have any special feeling to me. Could it be...? I know it’s fucking too late! Hell, it’s been 5 years since our high school! But I have to say it, no matter what.
“Yesung, I want to say something”
“What is it?”
“Yesung, I........ I... uhm..” Oh God, I’m so freaking nervous.
“What’s wrong Kyu? Say it...”
“I... love you”
There, I said it. I built up all my courage and then that words just slipped out from my tongue. I watch Yesung just widening his eyes, not moves, not answering. He is frozen. God, I hope I’m not making a wrong action.
“What are you said?” finally he said something though it’s only a whisper.
“Yesungie, I love you..”
“It can’t be, no this isn’t right.”
“Why? Did I say something wrong?”
“No, why do you have to say those words..”
“Sungie, I...”
“Why do you have to say it now when I already settled my heart? Why?”
“Settled your heart? So is it true that you love me all this time not Siwon?”
He just stay quite. Then it is... Oh my God... Is this real? Oh dear, he loves me! Yesungie loves me all this time! In my instinct I lean forward to try to hug him. But.... he moves backward, refuse me.. What..
“Yesung, you do love me right? Why-”
“No, I don’t.”
“What? Yesung, I-“
“I’m tired of waiting for you. I hoped you will against my relationship! But you gave your blessing. And now, when I already settled my heart, you came rush to me and said I love you! Are you going to play with me?”
“NO~! How the hell you think like that?”
“I don’t know! Look, let’s just pretend that nothing’s happen. Let’s end this work. I’m tired. Get out.”
He stands up from the chair. Out of my impulse, I grab his wrist and pull him closer to me. In a matter of second my lips is on top of his.
A/N : sorry for the late update *bow* and this is short, i know... sorry again..
i wrote this few weeks ago but i got time to post it today, my works is bitchy....
anyway, this is crap. i can't describe yesung's feeling like i imagined it in my head... and here i put a new character, Donghae ^^
rating: PG-13
genre: drama, romance
A/N notes: this is the sequel of is fate always this cruel?
summary for this chap : Kyuhyun finally confessed... and Yesung's reaction is...
thanks to @kijwij for supporting me! ^^
previous chapter : part 1
One year after
Yesung POV
I’m waiting for my boyfriend to return from his shopping time in his bedroom. I sit on Siwon’s bed. Uhm... Siwon’s scent is so nice. It’s been a year since I have a relationship with Siwon. He is a nice guy. Too nice I think. He treat me like I’m his most precious thing in his world. I should be happy, right? But why am I like this? I like Siwon, I really do. But somehow I can't develop this feeling into love. Everytime I think about Siwon and his attention to me, my mind is always dart to Kyu. Everytime I try to love Siwon my heart is always goes to Kyu. Kyu is my bestfriend, right? And my boyfriend is Siwon. Then I should treat him like one. But why do I feel this way? I grab a photo from my wallet. A picture of me and Kyu when we were still in high school. Kyu's smile is so warm in here. But why can't I feel it again, Kyu's warmth? He rarely spends his time with me lately. I miss you... I caress our picture.
"Maybe you should break up with siwon, and confess your feeling to your bestfriend"
I look up. Huh? Donghae? When did he get in?
"You should stop doing this, you keep on hurting both of them."
"Hae, what are you talking about?"
Siwon come out of nowhere. When is my boyfriend get home?
“I’m sorry Sungie, I think he is kinda not well right now so he blabbering nonsensical things.”
“Siwon!”
Donghae looks so mad. I feel so guilty inside. Hearing Donghae’s statement just making me feel bad toward Siwon. Siwon drag Donghae out of his room.
“Let’s get out from here”
Siwon said that, closing the door and leave me alone in his room.
End of Yesung’s POV
“Hae, you shouldn’t say something like that,” Siwon said with a serious tone.
“Look, Siwon, how long are you gonna hang into this relationship? You’ve been dating with him for a year. One whole fucking year! Yet he doesn’t show anything that he loves you!” Donghae started raising his voice.
“I’m sure he loves me. He just needs more time.” Siwon answered weakly.
“How much longer does he needs? A month? One year? Your whole life?! Tell me!”
“I don’t know!!! All that I know is that I love him and he is still mine!” Siwon started raising his voice, anger flamed up.
“But his heart isn’t!”
“Donghae, enough!”
“I won’t stop this until you realize your mistake!”
“What mistake?!”
“That you stupidly in love with him and you keep on hanging in your stupid hope that he will love you back yet he loves his own bestfriend!!”
*Punch!* Siwon’s fist flew uncontrollably to Donghae’s left cheek.
Donghae so shocked with his bestfriend reaction that he didn’t even realize the corner of his lips is bleeding. Siwon just stood still while mumbling to himself oh God, what I have done...
“Hae, I’m sorry...”
Siwon tried to reach Donghae’s cheek but instead Donghae slapped his hand. Siwon widened his eyes.
“You know what, I’m sick of you. I don’t wanna hear anything more about your relationship. Don’t you ever come to me when he breaks you up.”
Donghae walked away. Once again, Donghae’s words fired up Siwon’s anger.
“I won’t ever break up with him! Note that!”
I am indeed jealous of him, that’s what Hae thought.
Yesung’s POV
Why did Donghae say that? No, I’m not in love with Kyu. Not anymore. Since the day I accepted Siwon’s feeling I have to stop thinking about my love to him. Damn it, Yesung, it has been a year! Why can’t I move on? Kyu doesn’t love me, I’m waiting for nothing. All this year I just want him to yell at me, mad at me for accepted Siwon but he congratulated me instead. Maybe he really just considering me as a friend, nothing more...
I have to stop this. Stop my stupid feeling for him. Stop my stupid and endless waiting. Stop from all of this because I’m hurting Siwon the most. I’m using him too much. Siwonnie, I’m so sorry...
End of POV
One late evening
Kyuhyun POV
I’m staying in Yesung’s apartment to ask for his help to finish up my tasks. I don’t know why but Yesung looks so different today. He looks so tired. I know that I rarely spend my time with him. It’s not that I don’t care about him but I can’t bear myself to watch him together with his boyfriend. It’s hurting me too much so I ended up avoiding him all the time.
“Yesungie, I’m sorry”
He looks up. Oh my God, his brown chocolate eyes... So beautiful..
“Huh? For what?”
“For not having much time with you”
“It’s okay, I know you are busy with your class. I understand.”
He is smiling.. So breathtaking that I hold my breath unconsciously..
Suddenly, my mind flew back to the moment when I met Kibum. Did he tell me the truth? But why did he accept Siwon’s feeling? He supposed to reject him if he really loves me. But he hesitated when he said he doesn’t have any special feeling to me. Could it be...? I know it’s fucking too late! Hell, it’s been 5 years since our high school! But I have to say it, no matter what.
“Yesung, I want to say something”
“What is it?”
“Yesung, I........ I... uhm..” Oh God, I’m so freaking nervous.
“What’s wrong Kyu? Say it...”
“I... love you”
There, I said it. I built up all my courage and then that words just slipped out from my tongue. I watch Yesung just widening his eyes, not moves, not answering. He is frozen. God, I hope I’m not making a wrong action.
“What are you said?” finally he said something though it’s only a whisper.
“Yesungie, I love you..”
“It can’t be, no this isn’t right.”
“Why? Did I say something wrong?”
“No, why do you have to say those words..”
“Sungie, I...”
“Why do you have to say it now when I already settled my heart? Why?”
“Settled your heart? So is it true that you love me all this time not Siwon?”
He just stay quite. Then it is... Oh my God... Is this real? Oh dear, he loves me! Yesungie loves me all this time! In my instinct I lean forward to try to hug him. But.... he moves backward, refuse me.. What..
“Yesung, you do love me right? Why-”
“No, I don’t.”
“What? Yesung, I-“
“I’m tired of waiting for you. I hoped you will against my relationship! But you gave your blessing. And now, when I already settled my heart, you came rush to me and said I love you! Are you going to play with me?”
“NO~! How the hell you think like that?”
“I don’t know! Look, let’s just pretend that nothing’s happen. Let’s end this work. I’m tired. Get out.”
He stands up from the chair. Out of my impulse, I grab his wrist and pull him closer to me. In a matter of second my lips is on top of his.
A/N : sorry for the late update *bow* and this is short, i know... sorry again..
i wrote this few weeks ago but i got time to post it today, my works is bitchy....
anyway, this is crap. i can't describe yesung's feeling like i imagined it in my head... and here i put a new character, Donghae ^^