i have an essay to do, but right now i could care less. Because i miss the beauty in the world. I wander through life, like im waiting till my life starts happening for real. But we only get so long, every year i waste waiting is one i won't get back. Maybe my life now isn't much, but we only get so much time and one day ill regret the wasted days.

haven't touched this in a while..

im over drowning i think im actual in control now

oddly consideering my last post, ive been having nightmares about drowning. But more being trapped under without air than drowning.

if i can just get through, i can breathe. Gasping for air and coming up only to realize that theres 20 feet of water above my head, and just when i think i've got my regulator clenched for dear life between my teeth, water pours in. and im choking again

i was of course looking at imdb instead of writing my paper. So i was looking at quotes from Garden State and i happpened upon this. It's not witty or funny, it's not even prolific. It's simply the cliche at the end of the movie, but the girl in Garden State is named sam so i found something jarring about this "This is life. And I'm in love with ( Read more... )

so im going to Andros to do a marine biology program this summer, its an island in the bahamas i should be really excited, but...im not

ahh overwhelmed

i just realized my first entry was at internship last year. The thing is it feels like nothings changed. The things that have are for the worse.

and i just don't know what to do. Really is this all that life amounts too. Not stressed as much as frozen. I can't focus on the things i need to do. I can't write. I keep promises to other people and break all the ones ive made to myself. And i can't shake that nagging feeling that no one really cares