I'm sitting here, cold, tired, and all together worn out, with my now defunct wedding veil perch on my dirty hair that I haven't found time to wash in two days, reflecting on the journey that I have almost finished. It has not been an easy fourteen months of being engaged (to say the least). I've schemed, perused, pouted, and planned my way ( Read more... )

It's sometimes hard reminiscing about things that are in the past but you are no longer a part of. (aka past friend/relationships). Some people are out there, traveling the world, living in foreign countries and helping others. Some people are going to law school, or becoming these amazing people. And I remember being there, years ago, when we ( Read more... )

I think I need to re-prioritize my life. Right now, I should be focusing on my wedding day, my relationship with Brian, and entering married right. I shouldn't be worrying about what this person thinks, or why this person chooses to cut me out or their life merely days before the most important day of my life ( Read more... )

Until we get married. But tonight I'm not thinking about that. I'm beyond worrying about it- things will get done and things will be fine. It's hard not to think that this isn't the way we thought it was going to be. I thought things were going to be different- that we would have been preparing for a baby instead of a wedding. Sometimes I do ( Read more... )

So I'm mostly done cleaning the house. I just have to tackle the bedroom now. It's messy because we never put away our clothes. But I did the dishes, mopped the floor, cleaned the bathroom, and I fixed the vacuum cleaner so that I could vacuum (don't ask ( Read more... )

I'm in a mood tonight. Not sure what it is. Part of it is lonely, part stressed, nosgtalic, scared, worried, anixious, depressed, and the list goes on. All those not happy emotions, I'm feel now ( Read more... )

So the invites came, and the dress is in ( Read more... )

I know, I know, don't have a heart attack ( Read more... )

Ok, so it's now sometime in July... It's been a while since I've written anything. Well, in case someone hasn't heard, Brian and I have moved back to Manchester, NH. Honestly, I love it. I love my new job working at the credit union (aka a bank) so much more than I ever did working at Aramsco. Yes, the new job actually requires work, but it ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish I had more people in my life who made an effort to be friends with me. It feels like I'm always phoning, or im'ing them, and no one calls me, or im's me. My last phone call from any one was 2 days ago, and that was from Brian. I know it's partly because I live far away from any one, and I haven't got to making friends around ( Read more... )