i've been seeing and thinking some weird stuff lately. all i can do tonight is dwell on it. sit here. there's so much that i want explained. i want the answers to it all. i want to know how it works so i can fix me ( Read more... )

its been a while, and no i dont mean that dumb ass staind song. uh oh, the popo are checking cars outside. anywho. apartment life is going well. ive found myself to be very busy and i dont have much time to do anything anymore. i go to class, go to work, then come home and do some hw and work on my painting. school is going well, as far as i ( Read more... )

little ginny pig peaced out today.

:/

i'll miss her.

i felt sick for the majority of yesterday. had to take a piss test, hopefully i passed. i laid around in my room for the res of the day, too sick to do anything else. i drank too much. i'm calming down on alcohol for a while, atleast a week. well..till cory's sky bar bash. had coffee with jake last night, it was refreshing. we ( Read more... )

this christmas is going well. i have some wonderful friends and family.

i do love all my friends. <3

what would i do if it werent for air drums?

what would i do if it werent for being a closet alcoholic sneaking beers at midnight while watching tool videos and aeon flux?

what would i do if it werent for R.E.M. at 12:44am?

who the fuck all reads this?

i swear. i should delete this shit.

i'll make a new one later.
im just tired of taking shit from people.

like a spoiled child you gain everything you could possibly want only to turn around and throw it all away. the new wants and desires are yet again given to you destined to face the same outcome until you cease to exist. this is your point. i will call you the glutton, the greedy, the blind. justified by "hard work" and work ethic, yet really ( Read more... )

funny how one unexpected conversation can make you feel like shit. the obvious reminder that i am a loser, and im not going anywhere. i feel like shooting myself in the face. or becoming an alcoholic. maybe im just realizing that im white trash, and ill always be write trash, and no matter how hard i try to get away from it, the debts of my ( Read more... )

i have no clue where to go ( Read more... )