Reflecting back, I'm not really sure when I decided to let the tidal wave of life dictate where I landed and how I got there. I know several people who are where they set out to be and they made it happen for themselves, but for some reason, I just haven't done that. I allow things to happen to me instead of dictating my path. I am in no way ( Read more... )

my kiddos had a halloween party at my good friend trevor's house last night. damon and angel were there, and she just avoided and ignored me as if i wasn't there. damon was painted like a skeleton; so kiva was very scared when we got there and wanted me to hold her for the first half of the party. i put her down for a second because my arm hurt ( Read more... )

How many bad decisions are we as a nation going to tolerate. Our current administration has shoved us into recession, repression, and regression with the mismanagement of natural disasters, mishandling of terrorist attacks, the appointment of unqualified people to our Supreme Court, decision to send our sons and daughters into a country to fight a ( Read more... )

sick, sick, sick ( Read more... )

why does it feel like i am slipping away? i used to know who i was and had a definate direction with my life. i just can't say the same for myself today. i am not happy, and i really haven't been for a long time. sure i have good days and good moments, but overall i am not happy with the way things are going. my house is a mess, my life is a ( Read more... )

you ever have one of those days where everything goes wrong, no matter how positive you are about the outcome. "mercury is in retrograde"... if i had a dollar for every time i heard that this past week, i would be rich! i know that the planets are out to screw up my vacation plans, but come one... at some point there has to be some break in the ( Read more... )

so sleepy ( Read more... )

a post from my friends die warzau, good reading and inspiring ( Read more... )

i was driving to work this morning, and a really good song came on. it instantly shot me back about 13 years to a time when i didn't have to worry about being responsible for anyone else, i had no "career" to tend to... in fact i really didn't worry about much of anything except having a good time. it felt good to transcend to that moment. don't ( Read more... )

so on monday i was involved in an auto accident. it was rush hour traffic on the only freeway linking maricopa to phoenix. i stopped, the girl behind me stopped, but the firebird behind her didn't stop in time. i heard the squealing brakes, looked in my rear-view mirror, and saw the car behind me come barreling into me. thank god i don't climb ( Read more... )