and if i hurt you, then im sorry.... please dont think that this was easy

why is it that someone ((me speaking of myself for the moment)) can be so "in love" (not the typical defintion) with someone, when they know everyone else sees ugliness when all you see is beauty. i see so much in him. the only problem is, i am the only one that does. its ( Read more... )

have kissed someone ( Read more... )

things always end up how they should be. whether it is easy or not.

in this case, it makes me excited. and happy.

okay so i accidently called while my phone was still set so that it blocks my number when i call someone so now he turned his phone off and i dont want him mad at me ( Read more... )

i got two of my art magazines today. that made me really excited, because yes, i am that much of a dork ( Read more... )

so i suppose i should update... like, really update... seeing as how i havent really

okay, first friday!

-party turned out great

i got to see all of my friends (minus morgan because she had to work). allison came with celia and they just made me laugh the entire time bc here comes celia down this big ass hill to get to the bonfire in four inch ( Read more... )

i need to

let the present take care of itself, and stop trying to change things. if he is meant to be in my life as a friend, it will happen. i cant change it.

all i can do is hope.

its the feeling you get when you are with someone, that lets you know they are suppose to be in your life. you only get it with very few people, because only a ( Read more... )

parents are dumb

so for a quick update:

-i have my spinal cord stimulator surgery (minor) the 5 of january ((TAYLORS BIRTHDAY!!!<3 ( Read more... )

its his birthday tomorrow
mine is today!
i miss him and i know that part of him misses me.

please smile
i know your not doing well right now
maybe you need me like i think i need you
but if nothing else take the time to know
even if you think no one else does
i love you
youre life is worth living - you have already made it through 19 years
i still care
i ( Read more... )