No, I don't know why I have an LJ if I never use it. I'm by no means a private person--I keep private what needs to be and anything else, I hardly give a shit if people know it. But even so, I hardly post here. In part that's because I have nothing to say, and in part because I forget to come to LJ.

As to the nothing to say part, it's like... ( Read more... )

Days like this, I wonder why I bother; wonder if anyone would care. Of course, by anyone, I really am referring to specific people. Obviously I think the answer is 'probably not'--why else would I ask it?

Is there even a point in what I'm doing, what I'm trying to achieve? Because I want this so badly thst it hurts. But more and more... it seems ( Read more... )

1. Elaborate on your default icon. Sometimes it's Rikku of FFX fame. Other times it's the Sacred Chao of the Discordians.
2. What's your current relationship status? One partner, one girlfriend.
3. Ever have a near-death experience? Not as I understand the term.
4. Name an obvious quality you have. Mmm... I'm dependable.
5. What's the name of the song ( Read more... )

No, I haven't been keeping up with people's LJs. I apologise (mostly to the one person whose LJ I actually leave comments on). I've... had stuff going on. Not that I want to talk about it. I'm already depressed enough.

So why don't I talk about a girl? I know plenty of girls. I know a lot about girls (mostly how warm and soft and squooshy they are ( Read more... )

So I asked my friend Brit how she was. Her exact response was "Good. How's you? Nervous?"

And I said I was very nervous, and she said that was normal.

I said back to her, "Yes, well... why did I have to pick NOW to start being normal?"

Kris gave me this game, along with the names: Summer Glau, Megan Fox, Charlize Theron.

Marry: Summer Glau. Cameron and River in one? I'm not pushing that over a cliff.

Shag: Charlize Theron. I like her more than Fox.

Cliff: Megan Fox. Because I can't stand her.

If you want to give me more names, or ask me for names, go ahead.

Honestly... right now, why do I bother?

I know I'm frustrated. I know it will pass. I'll go to sleep tonight, wake up and will probably be all fine. I hope so, myself.

But if people claim to want to be in my life and then I end up wanting to beat my head against the wall...

And when I thought things were going so well, too.

I wonder, at times, what it'll be like.

I figure I'll be somewhat tired, having spent all night awake just to make it there and you can't sleep that well on planes, but at the same time, that doesn't seem quite right, because I know I'll be excited too--that should take some of the tired edge off. I'll stay in my seat for as long as possible, I ( Read more... )

I feel very content with how my trip planning is going. I've never travelled overseas before--the furthest I've travelled is down to Melbourne in Victoria and up to Cairns in Queensland. That's as far as I've ever been. And only one of those trips was solo--the first three were with family, the fourth and fifth were for school and all the rest were ( Read more... )

Mmm...

I was going to do the LJI Home Game this week, but what I came up with, I didn't quite like. I think it started out pretty well, but it kind of fell apart about halfway in. So maybe I'll look at it again and see what can be done to make it better, if anything.

I'm pretty busy with wedding preparation: the thing to be done now is the guest list ( Read more... )