i don't know what to do. all i want to do is cry and scream. i hurt more now then ever and i don't know whats going on anymore. the past 3 weeks all i've wanted to do is cry until there is nothing left.i feel so used form so many people and mainly form 3 people the most(Jason, Nat, and Chris) i hurt for emilia because i feel like her father doesn't ( Read more... )

i hate life the only thing i don't hate it my little girl. things just feel like thy are getting worse and i just don't know how much longer i can go i am trying i really am and all i feel is pain even when i look at emilia i feel pain i don't know what to do. i'm never really happy anymore and all i want to do is cry. i have no joy but my little ( Read more... )

ok so a lot has happened. my mom called the cops on me because i wouldn't give her the keys to my car. the cops couldn't do anything my name is on it too and they made her leave what pissed me off the most is she had her father driver her down to my house i didn't want him to know where i live and i hate him he is an ass hole. her whole family ( Read more... )

so i'm just going to say what is on my mind and just get things out. i feel used and worthless. i feel like i can never get on my feet or get things where they need to be. i feel like no matter how hard i try i'll never get anywhere. i feel like i'm going to end up just like my mother and i really don't want that.why is it that i get all the wrong ( Read more... )

Emilia is 6 months now and still very heathly. she is now 17 lb and 26 inches long she has her fist 2 teeth on the bottom. she also has hair now. she don't do the "i miss daddy" cry anymore but she will say "dada" sometimes. and Jason doesn't care, he is still trying to blame him leaving and skiping town and lieing to me and sleeping with someone ( Read more... )

i'm so pissed off my big brother is why will (my brother) moved in with his gf some time ago then after i moved my stuff into his old room so that the master bedroom that i was using could get re-carpeted then his gf broke up with him and he had to move back in and has nothing really with him right now so no need to have a whole master bed room to ( Read more... )

so my little girl s the prettiest thing ever. i love her with all of my heart. being a mother is the bet thing ever. i love Jason with all of my heart and soul, he truly i my soulmate, and he i the greatest father to our little girl that anyone could ask for. they look so cute together. i am so proud of Jason, he is smarter then what people give ( Read more... )

OK so i feel like shit once again i know it been a long time for me writing but well a lot has gone on i was pregnant and didn't tell my family and most of my friends. i was so scared of being a mother i was afraid that she would hate me (she always beat the shit out of my insides and i could never keep anything down)and i never told anyone i didn' ( Read more... )

Ok so I know I haven’t posted in some time but I’m going to today. So I’m at the college early so that I can pick up 2 books that I need and they don’t have both of the books I need and its going to take till my next class to get one of them and I need it now and the other one the teacher didn’t even tell the bookstore about the book so they don’t ( Read more... )

So I felt like shit this morning and sleepy and shit like that. I had to come to work (still at work) at 8 and I don't get off till 5, Jason went to work at 10 and got off at 2 and had class at 3 so I’m working and helping someone fill out a print request so at 2 30 when I was helping someone Jason hands me a Monster Khaos energy drink and 12 ( Read more... )