I honestly want nothing more than for you to want to talk to me, be interested in me, find me
interesting. I want you to IM me first sometime. Because you fascinate me. And I don't want to annoy you or bore you or creep on you.
I just want to get to know you.
Because you're kind of perfect.

and im so mad at you
for doing this
now
right after I got my lip done
so I can't throw up
and I can't smoke

so I really can't do anything
to make myself feel better.

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you dont call anymore
havent heard my phone ring in ages
when i call youre always busy
have you noticed that we dont communicate?
you never call anymore

did you know
babies can breathe
under water?

gaping like a fish,
eyes wide,
like a little
gasp
ing
rasp
ing

breathe.
little.
tiny.
acquatic miracle
unkillable
invincible
vulnerable little creature.

to
pro
tect
at. all. costs.
allcosts.

did you know
grown-ups
can't
breathe
under water?

time passes
passes
passes
by.
like wind, whips
past these windows
eyes, lenses, blind and. unaware
of its presence.
until it
rips tears wrenches
away my protection,
my roof and windows and walls.
and then i'm here
naked.
unprotected.
bearing the full brunt
of its lashes.
despite
the fact
that i never
even
saw it
coming.

time passes.
by.

i wasted a day on sleep and migraines ( Read more... )

i think i maybe maybe ( Read more... )

listen to me, listen.
i know im not saying anything.
you dont even have to hear me.
but listen, just listen.
please.

i havent written in so long, i dont think i know how anymore.
i dont feel anything, anything worth writing down.
im cold. and im tired. and thats all ive got.
boring, boring.

its almost christmas.
cool.
i should draw, but i dont think i can do that, anymore, either.
so what have i got left?

beats me.