you know that feeling when your stomach flips and your headaches but not really a pain? and the world goes dark but stuff seems to glow threw the haze? but not really glow, more like you dumped a whole bunch of glitter, not the big chunks of glitter but the fine grained glitter? and no matter now hard you wipe at it that fucking shit wont ever ( Read more... )

thats what i need to do... i figure if i really wanted something, and it didnt happen i need to replace that, and find something else to put my mind on.. i hate thinking.. thats what always hurts me.. when i think too much and then end up crying or putting too much on a person.. i cant do that.. so i dont think and then things dont hurt... does ( Read more... )

aight, so anyways.... last nite i talked to that guy i really care alot about.... like 2 weeks ago i called just to tell him i loved him and still didnt hear shit from him and last nite he called, randomly, just to have a "hi, hello how are you?" conversation.... i didnt do so well at that... i made him talk about us, and basically he said that at ( Read more... )

its been a long time... crazy... i used to update almost like i had to.. now i have xanga and myspace.. and work.. and school.. and friends... proms coming up... things have gotten a little weird.. but i think i like it... its hard.. i'm lookin at colleges getting ready to be a senior... its gonna be great to get out of here.. but of course i'll ( Read more... )

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me ( Read more... )

yep yep... workin saving money when i can... i hope that this week sometime... probably the weekend hopefully... that i'll get to see a very important person.. just hoping and wishing here... worried about many things.. not all of them the same person.. actually at lot of people... i worry too much... but they are all so important to me.. if i ( Read more... )

umm lets see.... still thinkin to much but hopefully that will go away so heres another great song... why i want to put this one on here... i guess i'll figure that out in a minute ( Read more... )

i want to post pictures on here... but the bastards wont let me.. i also what to find a song about how i feel right now... wait.... thinking give me some time.. i'll find it ( Read more... )

too much bull shit.. i feel icky.. lets be honest.... first of all before i treat anyone different i tell them what the fuck they did wrong.. so if you decide to treat me different you better be prepared for a conversation as to why... because if i care about you i wont leave it at that.. if you have a problem or concern about anything i did or do ( Read more... )

really weird day... trying really hard not to think... it was an awesome day... i found out some of the best news in the world for me... my darbear is coming home.. my best friend will be back... its wonderful news but its also started the thinking... all the good and bad times.. and damn there are the present problems... my moneys getting tight ( Read more... )