Chris' Grandpa died this morning. Though expected, it came much sooner than we had ever dreamed. Ten days ago he sat at the holiday table, stuffing himself with gefilte fish and telling the same stories he'd told hundreds of times. I already miss his voice.

right now the online radio station i listen to (KEXP.org) is playing Love Buzz by Nirvana. in my high school yearbook, Chris wrote the opening lyrics "Would you believe me when I tell you, You are the queen of my heart?" i remember him writing it while we say in my locker bay around the corner from the publications office. (i've probably already ( Read more... )

Spent a few minutes at the cemetery today. Someone had been there and left two, beautiful hematite stones on the headstone. I'm glad that they were there.

i just figured out why Papa November is my favorite Hexane track, despite the presence of actual vocals on 403 ( Read more... )

Chris and I had a very similar idea of heaven. We called it the White City, and we knew when something belonged there. we would recognize objects from this world that belonged in that one. I think that's why he loved the aesthetic Macintosh stuck to for so long. I heard it in the minor 7ths and fifths he played with sci fi synths. It's legible ( Read more... )

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You know how well Daniel knew him. Funny how I caught this because in a message board I'm on, a bunch of people were wondering "why a red tie on black shirt" for Haujobb in NYC last week, a deviation from the band's normal onstage garb of white jumpsuits.

So an onstage shoutout from Richard 23 and now Haujobb rocks ( Read more... )

i've been thinking a lot about him in the past few weeks, remembering tons of things. i think because it's summer and we always spent tons of time together in summer, whether it was between grades in high school, or i was home from college, or when i finally had time to order mexican with him and steve on summer thursday nights when i'd come home ( Read more... )

So I posted once before about gathering a group of people together to go see X-3: The Last Stand from this community. I treasure the arguments I had with Chris with regard to this film and the comics it draws from ( Read more... )

lately , its been a johnny cash song that reminds me of him... perhaps this is in the same vein of diamondbankman1's last post...

Well, you're my friend
And can you see
Many times we've been out drinking
Many times we've shared our thoughts
But did you ever, ever notice, the kind of thoughts I got
Well you know I have a love, for everyone I know ( Read more... )

Hi, I found an article Chris wrote 12 years ago for the high school social studies magazine that I edited. I posted this on my journal and magnetgirl asked that I repost it here. Please note that the article was about Kurt Cobain's death and Chris wrote very personally about how it affected him and how he viewed his own future - and as such parts are sad ( Read more... )