I don't want somebody to love me
Just give me sex whenever I want it
'Cause all I ask for is instant pleasure
Instant pleasure, instant pleasure

so i'm currently too hung over to move
i've been alone for three hours and it's torture!
spring break has been bipolar
first its good, then bad, then good

last night i ran through the streets doing the hoedown throwdown: good
last night i slipped in nikita's vomit: bad
hahah JOKE

i'm noticing a pattern in my livejournal posts... depression
i think i post all my bad thoughts here
because i'm too afraid to think what others would may think of me

hey, i turn sixteen in two todays
am i excited?
hah! funny

i wish people knew how fucked up my mind really is
i always say i'm not good at being fake,
but i kind of am everyday

you did an excellent job raising me in your image,
fucked
twisted
depressed

i have so much to look forward to: concerts, vacations, birthdays... fuck, i'm seeing the jonas brothers in atlantis.
and yet, i can't stop feeling unhappy.
i can't stop thinking, well, what if i die?

why the fuck can't i lighten up?

i feel like i have no more real friends and that i can't trust anyone anymore

let's just get fucked up until we forget how much we all hate each other

so when i was a chonga, i solved my problems with drinking
when i was emo, i solved my problems with cutting
when i was getting normal, i solved my problems by eatting
now i'm me, what do i do?

welcome 2009
although i don't recall your arrival, i'm sure it was grand
i do remember joe jonas dancing around though lookin' just dashing
last night was a joke
joke
joke
so high, i ate a couple stars
so drunk, idk i good pun for it
hahah

cheers

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