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it feels stupid to hurt because of things that were lost
it feels worse to mourn things that never were
they pull me so low
every step forward seems to fuel more loss -
songs that get me pumped
Nonpoint, In the Air Tonight
Shinedown, Diamond Eyes
Kevin Rudolf, In the City
The Game, Dope Boyz
Eminem, Till I Collape
Eminem,8 Mile
T.I., Yeah Ya Know
In Flames, Where Dead Ships Dwell
Volbeat, Warrior's Call
And that list will do for now. -
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so, i gotta figure out this self loathing kinda thing ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
sometimes i wonder if
you would be happier without me
id be heart broken
but id do it for you
that all i was to you
was a bittersweet memory
cliche' attack there
but still when i feel
your heart ache
should i just go away? -
the bass-ics
im at the point where i am asking myself ( Read more... ) -
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i need to talk to you
about everything
everything that sometimes
seems like nothing
im not mature enough to listen
and when i speak
i am not wise enough to use caution
so i site in silence
and i anguish -
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i just wish i was stronger
then that would make everything right
but it wouldnt
but i could fool myself
maybe for a little while -
goal
i want to save $50 a month until December so I can buy myself a bass I never have to complain about ever. I have it narrowed down to a handful of models, non more than $600.
however
a better option would be amelia getting pregnant.
buh-bye bass guitar money.
hello happy future with wife and family.
maybe then my demons will finally be silent -
Futures
Life always has more in store than I can ever think of in the moment. I have been reaching out and checking on bridges I burned, hard choices I made, and doing my best to cut the crap from my life ( Read more... ) -
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i know i made mistakes
i hope you see i am trying to right them
why do you fight me?
i know you are fragile
but even when i try to be senesative to that
you push me away
and i push back and break you
why is this the cycle we live with?
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