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RASENGAN22
Yup, I'm here again looking for "Empty" by our mythical Rasengan22. My last laptop crashed. I should invest in an external harddrive. IDK why she makes it so hard to contact her directly. Pleeeeease.
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I am killing it!
Spacing out your meals really counts for something. I find I have more energy too. The long walk from work to home really is the icing on the cake (heh, funny) especially since I'm forbidden to eat after work. (That's like, 3-4 hours before bed anyway. Whatever) I was being lenient on eating whatever I felt like the last week, but now I'm ( Read more... ) -
Hibernation near to a close
I got tired of getting no results. Decided my body just might need an extra push/extra variables such as the stash of vitamins/water pills I bought yesterday. So even if I do a hardcore water fast I won't do too much damage. I bought green tea triple fat burner, "hair skin and nails" which is like a super female multivitamin, water pill diuretics ( Read more... ) -
One thing I like about myself:
I never do give up. This summer I fought with myself with little progress. My ED took over for a while, and then I fell into deeper depression. I didn't really look for work all that time. All I really wanted to do was sit at the computer and talk to you all while not eating and do my midnight walks. It was a nice break from working all the time. ( Read more... ) -
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sometimes alcohol can make me forget my ED and, sometimes I am okay with that. Tonight I can forget it all.
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He's gone, time to get busy.
The cheating douche left for his work week. Suspiciously 2 hours earlier than normal. Probably because she lives near where his ship docks. First thing is first- assess the situation and make a to-do list ( Read more... ) -
My first gay pride parade was fun :)
I was on my feet for hours and hadn't eaten (after my last binge/purge) and I was nervous to meet new people, but I had a great time. Since I live here and they didn't, I got to chose a restaurant I knew would be health conscious and vegan (for me). I got rice, beans, this tofu-fried-bean mix called sofritas, salsa, corn-cilantro and guac with ( Read more... ) -
I have an idea...
I think the reason I "crash and purge" after a 5-day restriction is because I don't plan. I'm not a planner at almost anything in life. But if I tried to put effort into planning my calories I could safely follow it and have the energy to work out again. Or at least pick up swimming again. I think that when I feel strong enough to not eat, I hang ( Read more... )
