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[repairmanjack]

I haven't updated this thing in ages. I really need to vent, but I don't feel like talking to anyone, so I guess this is the next best thing. I feel defeated. Completely and utterly defeated. I know that I should be furious, but I'm not. Not really, I guess. I just want to crawl into bed and lay there for about a month. I know I'm being all

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[anonymous]

I figured you wanted to keep your privacy, since you didn't outright say my name

That

[yossarian1979]

Was truly a meaningful Journal entry. It actually kinda hurts me though that you never trusted to come to me and talk about it. I feel like your my bigger brother that i would do anything for, yea we bicker alot, but man ive entrusted to you literally my life secrets. I dont know man, I just sometimes wish youd come to me like I do to you when I have shit stirring me up.

How it all comes around

[yossarian1979]

Your post is exactly the way I feel. I feel kinda ashamed about it all, about how I cant look away from my past, and how it drains my very core. I think this time its for real for me, where I either sink or swim. Its all swishing in my head.

I just want to feel the way I was when I saw the world, and the things around me as being alright, but now I feel as if the world has been tainted and that I cant wash it away.

People can seem evil at the most dire times, I guess its easier to look away and move on than to put effort into something. I just wish I had the strength to.