I really need something, anything, to show me that love exists ( Read more... )

I can't decide if I hate her or still love her.
One minute I don't ever want to see her again, the next I miss her dearly.
She is either the best thing that has ever happened to me or the worst.
I can't decide.

I have finally decided on a minor. I was considering doing a business minor for a while then I looked it up and I had only completed one class for it instead of the 3 that I thought, so I am no longer doing that. I searched for something I could do for a little while and found something that I am quite excited about. I am now minoring in ( Read more... )

Have you ever been faced with a situation with two very different possible choices and you don't know which to choose. So you decide on the harder one. Not because you think it is best, or that it will be more rewarding, but simply to see if you can handle it. Do you make the choice that hurts you in the short-term but could end up helping you ( Read more... )

I watched Garden State a couple nights ago. It had been awhile since I had watched it. It got to the scene about not having a "home" and it hit me harder than it ever had before. I still had my parents' house in Phoenix I could go to when I needed a day or two off. I don't have that anymore. My parents officially moved to Colorado on the 7th ( Read more... )

I am FINALLY moved into my new apartment in Alpine Ridge. We are in building 10, apartment 139. Come visit us. The living room and kitchen are all set up, but my room is still a complete battle zone. Fun though.

I had a talk with Jac tonight. We talked about some stuff that is going on with her and stuff that is going on with me. It was good to have someone to just talk to face-to-face. I haven't been able to see Jac much lately but she is one person that I know I can always turn to no matter what ( Read more... )

If you would have asked me two days ago, I would have told you that I was ready to try and fix things between Shilah and me. But now I am not so sure. She stopped by to borrow something from Mac and she came up to say hi, and as soon as I saw her all those feelings of being hurt and pissed off came rushing back. And today I have had some down ( Read more... )

I am really having trouble trying to figure out how to handle this whole situation with Shilah. Jac called me earlier and told me that Shilah had called her crying about it. I did feel a little bit bad. I was thinking of trying to talk to her about it and see what happened. Then she called and left a message when I was away from my phone. In ( Read more... )

I will explain my last blog for those of you who might not know what I was talking about. Last night was the Karaoke, as I said. Well, Shilah showed up there with her new boyfriend, or whatever he is. I am not upset about her being with someone new, in fact I am happy for her. I hope he makes her happy. But I had no idea she was seeing ( Read more... )