I want!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

By the way, bubblebaths = the most amazing things ever invented
vineyards = the second most amazing things

That is all...
Oh no wait.
Don't go.

I ripped out my brain, for so being me not think so much no more. Me being for stupid now.
Me was never for good thinking at. And I still dont does it right!
It be lovely.

The past few days have been bad.

Yesterday (the 2nd) was really bad, for no reason, so today I slept for most of the day. My work called me twice but I ignored them. I was up too late last night, letting unreal scenes and too real memories run through me over and over. I was thinking about mistakes that I've made and how I can't change them now. I ( Read more... )

Tomorrow morning I leave to go home to NPR ( Read more... )

Today, I found out what love is.

I was over at the boys' house watching "The Last Samurai" with Eric, Marcus, Nate, TJ, and Blayne, and I decided to make cookies. Lisa had bought some of those "break and bake" cookies because I had asked her to, so I took them out of the fridge, and put them on two pans. I preheated the oven, put the pans in, and ( Read more... )

I feel like nothing.
I don't want to do anything.
Nothing inspires me.
I have no drive.
I want to sleep forever, but I can't sleep.
I can't sleep.
I.
Can't.
Sleep.
My room is a mess.
My head won't turn off.
I'm seriously losing it.
I'm lost.

Hey. My head hurts and I think it's because there's too much going on up there. This past weekend was a bit stressful, but I think I'm dealing with it ok.

Things are still shifting. I feel them shifting me too.

I do not feel good.

I do not like this.

I had really bad dreams last night about stabbing myself with needles and it was very scary.

...just thought you ought to know.

I think I went on a kind of date tonight.

It was nice, he bought my ticket and it was just the two of us. He's a good kid.

Don't know where it'll go, if anywhere, but it was a good night.

:D

I just wrote this whole big thing on here and Blayne just erased it ( Read more... )

I don't really feel like updating this right now. I thought I did, but I was wrong. Maybe I'll just sum up.
*I almost killed a resident at work... and I'd do it again
*Went home for the weekend to see Dad in the hospital, now hate hospitals even more
*Celebrated Beans 21st with some good people and good champagne
*Still poor as dirt, but hopefully ( Read more... )