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Ted
So i found out yesterday that one of the most amazing people I've ever known passed away... too soon Ted Novak was seriously the funniest most amazing person ever he taught me so much and opened my eyes and not be so selfish and close minded to the world around me... it seriously has not set it it just doesn't compute to me how something like this ( Read more... ) -
life
so every so often i realize i have this live journal and i spill my guts out who knows if anyone even looks at this shit .. i don't know why they would anyhow.. so in 2007 my father passed away and my life was completely turned upside down i went on a serious diet of xanax and alcohol LOTS of it i was completely lost and thought there was no hope ( Read more... ) -
awesome
Life is awesome no matter how crazy and dark things can get there is always good loving people in this world like my Mother Kathryn Fail Smith Luttrull "not trying to seem like a smart ass" seriously the world could end tomorow and it would be all good by me because i have the love and support from such a great family and set of friends..... many ( Read more... ) -
fuck it
sooo life has been pretty shitty lately my GF cheated on me and made me break up with her so now i dont know what the fuck to do sometimes i really dont understand why im here everything is one letdown after another i fuckin hate it i have a shitty job at a night club that i hate that plays music i hate and i barely make any money my band is pretty ( Read more... ) -
blame it
Pound my knuckles hard against the floor ( Read more... ) -
wow
Its been forever since I updated this bullshit but right now I'm comfortable in the new year with my ipod on in flames playing and I'm watching my bestfriend make a fool of himself playing basketball.... So a lot has changed over these last few months and a lot has stayed the same the situation with tina isn't good but it isn't bad atleast I dono ( Read more... ) -
summer
its summer and i just want to get the fuck out of arizona and get the fuck away from everyone who lives here