i'm home until july. i'm stuck on a boy. compared to what i really want everything else just feels like settling. pills, pills, pills and a boyfriend who doesn't believe in medicine. what am i doing. your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. do you know you're unlike any other? my grandma is dying and all i can think about is how i will fall ( Read more... )

fuck ittttt

i would just like to say that celexa is amazing. after a weekend of forgetting to take it and then taking it this morning, i can literally feel my thoughts and emotions balancing out.

this is a big fuck you to everyone.

things that are wrong:
rob suddenly refuses to speak to me
he is the third boy to do this to me
rick santorum exists
today i stared at a piece of tape on the wall for 36 minutes

things that are right:
i have a mini fridge right next to my bed so i don't ever have to move again if i dont want to

i don't know what to do anymore so i guess i'll just stick to staring at the wall for now

i wonder if i am ever going to run out of tears to cry over you.

okay, good. we're making progress.

i do literally everything for you and you cant even stay with me when i need you
you suck

updates:

-i am currently looking for a job, i have an interview at sam adams (lol) and hopefully another with the globe
-megan and i are moving in together in september (!!!!!)
-i am failing fundamentals of computer science
-i am in love with every mechanical engineer