Fear is the Mind-Killer

[resist_anywhere]

Yesterday, I didn't end up buying any of the badass consumer goods that I wanted to.  A good pair of army boots is apparently like 250 bucks.  Who knew?  And the knives they sell here are all either really amazingly top-of-the-line or more expensive than I could get them elsewhere, so that was out.  And I don't drink nearly enough, nor is it cold

Comments

[incendiary_dan]

It takes a fair amount of strength to be so introspective and self-critical, and especially being willing to attempt to change oneself. Kudos.

[incendiary_dan]

Oh yea, and wow on the prices of those things. I would check eBay. I got my combat boots for $50 or so, and most of my many knives come from eBay and generally were under $20. Hel, maybe I'll sell you a knife. What are you looking for?

[resist_anywhere]

Yeah, all that stuff was brand-new, name-brand, top-of-the-line stuff, in the Czech republic, when the dollar is at an all-time low for exchange rates. I have a knife or two at home, and I'm not necessarily looking for anything in particular, just a decent non-aggressive looking fixed blade or a nice sturdy sharp folder to have while traveling.

[eponine_scarlet]

<3, i think i remember you saying these things to me before though. i think you knew more than you let on.

[resist_anywhere]

Yeah, I certainly can go through phases of lucidity and phases of delusion. I feel like I'm more aware of myself than ever, though. Should I interpret this comment as forgiveness, or just acknowledgment that I'm working on it?

[locazuluna]

I think it is good to know these things, but one must be careful of only self examining. It can be worse to know and to be working on them alone. It can block us away from other people even further.("We don't deserve them until we are better" mentality) I guess I feel that if we include others it help preserve perspective and it can help realize the why of these things, and when we realize why it can help heal that part of us, reconcile with it, if you will. Only when we are accepting of others and open to their feelings (Accepting that they like us, love us, care about us) can we start to really change.Help is not for the weak, but for those who have the strength to admit their wrongs.

I know it sounds all hippy dippy, but I say it from experience with working with myself and others.

Besides I like you and esteem you as a person, so I gotta be honest.

[resist_anywhere]

Yeah, I'm an awesome person, and I'm not the cause of all the problems in my relationships, not at all. But I can acknowledge ways that I need to improve myself, and work on them. That's important for me even outside of relationships.

Thanks so much for the comment and the warm thoughts! I take your opinion seriously and value it!

[198735168461328]

I will model my rule after you. (Or something like that?)