( Im psyching myself out again. )

Oct 15th day four
( The days seem so long now. )

go back to yesterday....

Oct 14th day three
( I’ve been reading the 5 stages of grief a lot. I’m definitely still in denial. I’ve never cried once, I’ve barely eaten, haven’t bathed. )

im going through some very hard times. i havent been on here it till me in nearly 2 years. i dont expect replies or even it to be read. it's as personal as anything i've ever thought but maybe in a pseudo public arena i can feel like im getting it out better because writing it to myself doesnt seem to be helping ( Read more... )

minah died. i was going to post them but i wanted to be sure some people heard it directly from me, not a journal.


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so been doing a lot of shit lately...my car keeps breaking random things window on passanger side coming off track and the muffler broke so today we fixed the window and by we i mean sean's dad and then sean and i mostly replasced the muffler today too and i have been taking care of my apartent stuff im offically apartmentless and been looking for ( Read more... )

that i am, there is basically nothing in my apartment expect my wireless router so i can get online ( Read more... )

5 days till no apartment. i've been busy ( Read more... )

so the beach, i wont do into details i have to leve again soon im sure brittny's lj will be long as fuck and such and you can read that. i'd link to it but im lazy so yep fu you are one fo my peopel and want to read it and dont have her's comment and i'll give it to you....it was fun, i enjoyed myself ( Read more... )

seriously been a few days and there is a LOT going on ( Read more... )