Throughout the questioning I learned a lot about this group of friends, and how real they were. Amanda is very loving and loyal and plays bass, Val has a lot of friends and a lot of them have fucked her over, their dad died, both their parents divorced and remarried a couple of times. Jeans mother died of cancer and he has done crack. Sheila ( Read more... )

So wednesday night I went to hang out with Sheila. She was with Amanda. We went to Amanda's house. Val was there with Bonaia and Poppy. We were answering questions that were in this book that Bonaia stole from borders. I didn't really answer too many question at first. Amanda was putting in her new belly button ring (it was a curved barbell ( Read more... )

So today I went over to Bonaia's house for a bbq/party. I invited scott and matt along... kinda. Scott called me and wanted to know about the party and i said i would call him when she called me, that wasn't really true. I had talked to her already and knew that there would be a get together, but I didn't know if I could bring friends. I called ( Read more... )

So the party never happened, well not yet, but I did go with kevin to jims house, although we really went to Geoffs house. at geoffs, chris, sean, jim, and jordan were there along with other people I didn't know to well or at all. geoff was angry about people being there so everyone left and kevin, me, chris, and sean went to go smoke at these ( Read more... )

We (meaning me kevin roger and andrew) met sean and went to kevins house. We got high and watched "American History X." It is a really great movie. And I learned two things from that movie... well not learned but re-evaluated. The present in that movie was in color, the past in black and white. and there was afeeling of not being able to ( Read more... )

Ah... today was a very productive day. interesting and knowlegeful. kevin called me, wanted to know what i was doing, if there was anything to do. no, of course not. so he came over and we just hung out for awhile. he called matt. then an idea formed, one about us getting high with sean cannon... matt wasn't going to do it, he was expecting ( Read more... )

Oh lord... I did real horrible last semester. an F,D-,D,C-
I just want to write damn it. Write and travel and pierce the mask of people.

I've finished "on the road" by Jack Kerouac. It was so great; I love stories that don't have a tale to tell; just real life but real life through different eyes, different thoughts, different settings, with characters that are so simplistically complex. I have much more appreciation for writing and I want even more so to travel, even to places ( Read more... )

this stuff is from a while back. things that I have written down, but now I want to put them together and re-write them. I have found some lj's of people I knew but haven't talked to or seen in a while. I'm going to add them to my friends list, which I think will be weird since they didn't give me their lj names... oh well ( Read more... )

its 4 in the morning

and im not awake on my own accord

banginging on the door... go to look no one there

banging aganin... i dont want to go look again

finally the door opens

"he isnt here!"

i feel like ive been traped in "the raven" and im slowly going crazy... nevermore