Haven't done this in awhile. Life sort of got in the way. Missy and i are ok...i guess...i dunno. Sometimes i feel like it'd be best if she was home. With her parents and everything. But i'm too afraid to ask and have her say yes. We're living check to check which sucks because i know she deserves better. Haven't heard from my friend dave in awhile ( Read more... )

So. I haven't really played guitar since i split from the band. I just don't really see the point in it. Came extremely close to selling it but i couldn't do it. Not to mention Missy (my fiance) has near begged me to keep playing. I just feel cursed around that thing. Every time i pick it up it seems like something bad happens. And after hearing ( Read more... )

So i walked for 3 hours combined to douglas to find a job without any luck. Which sucked pretty bad. My legs are still yelling at me for that one. And this is after i threw up the food i tried to eat. Apparently when you try to eat something after not eating for 4 days your body hates you. And of course i was in the shower when all of this happened ( Read more... )

I don't know what i want anymore. I thought i did. I thought i wanted a nice steady relationship with someone. But i'm not even sure about that anymore. I'd like to be with someone right now. But i just don't see it happening any time soon. Unless someone comes by and thinks i'm worth the trouble. But lately i find that really hard to believe. Blah ( Read more... )

My journal is friends only. Sucks for the n00bs that i'm not friends with. oh wait. i don't care :p

So as most of you know (technically true since 1 out of 2 people on my friends list know this) i was supposed to go to London for the summer. It looks like that isn't happening. I called the girls house to try and get in contact with her to see what was up. She wasn't home so i asked the guy "can you leave a message that matt called?" to which he ( Read more... )

 So i'm not sure what to do. Emily is still stuck floating around the old noodle. and its driving me crazy. i just feel like theres so much more i could have said. so much more i could have done. i'm not going to tell her any of this. she wants to move on so i'm going to give her that much. but in the meantime i basically have to have this internal ( Read more... )

So my band played a show last night. The Rest Is Silence at Tammany Hall in worcester. It was fun. we had some issues to start it off but we recovered fine ( Read more... )

This is matts new live journal! and like the last one i'll update for about a week or so and then totally forget i have one. sort of like the 20 dollar journal i bought. whoops. ah well. only person who even knows this is here (that i know atleast) is ben. whoo. or. something. i dunno. i'm tired/annoyed. byes for now