Today, in the most unlikely of places, I realized the importance of life. After school, I drove up to the supermarket and saw a toddler staring at a squirrel that had been hit by a car. He stared complacently until he began to understand exactly what he was looking at. Meanwhile, his mother was rushing to him, trying to prevent him from actually ( Read more... )

I'm probably going to end up regretting writing this entry because, for once, anything and everything that I could possibly write about includes other people. I hate writing actual journal entries about my cliche' "god-forsaken, drama-filled life", but damnit i'm going to have to expose a little bit of that just this once ( Read more... )

GDoggHizouse101 (7:09:54 PM): update ur journal ho
RetroTastic87 (7:10:22 PM): any update will be incredibly depressing
RetroTastic87 (7:10:26 PM): so i'm refraining
GDoggHizouse101 (7:10:38 PM): you could tlak about lettuce
RetroTastic87 (7:10:46 PM): i could

I'm sitting in animation, and i realized something about myself that i've never really been able to admit before. I realized that i am incredibly pompous. There are a lot of things that i try incredibly hard to do well, but inevitably fail at. Thus, those things that i do well once in a while become my only point of focus for self motivation and ( Read more... )

I've decided to sit down and force myself to write because my entries have been incredibly skimpy and few and far between. More than anything, i need to write because it's one of the only things that gives me true joy. I've been refraining from writing because i made a pact with myself a long time ago that i would never speak about anyone behind ( Read more... )

Alright, so i left CSZ early because i was really upset and exhausted after a very sub-par performance. I came home with a huge vat of ice cream which i ended up sharing with my parents. I was tired all throughout the game and afterward because i had pulled 3 all nighters this last week, preparing for a Chem AP test and a US AP test. Well, i ( Read more... )

with some of the things i've heard and learned tonight, i'm about to shoot myself. Jesus christ....

I need to keep telling myself that people are good, because right now i think i was mistaken

I'm going to go out on a limb and say something that I've never believed before. I'm going to chance living in denial, with the hope that I'll love the life I live. I may be lying to myself, and I may be lying to you. More than anything, if I'm wrong, I may be living this lie. What I'm going to say is so simple that people could never trust its ( Read more... )

Fourteen is new and holds onto the past ( Read more... )

Not playing in CSZ this friday against agoura because ( Read more... )