i feel nostalgic about when i used to write in here all the time. now i am too lazy, because i do not take ritalin or the like. i miss writing. i miss being good at things. i suppose i do need help in life... everyone needs help. it's not that no man is an island... i still would consider that... but no man is a planet!! i wonder if anyone ( Read more... )

I am thinking of picking up and moving to Linden, MI where Adam and I can live with his dad for a while ( Read more... )

FUCK

Feeling strange ( Read more... )

I am so.  Fucking.  Bored. 
Fuck me and my meaningless existence. 

This new year I am free. I just had an EXCELLENT practice session for the second day in a row, and I am learning the 3rd mvt. of Bartok concerto faster than I thought I would. Faster than I thought I COULD ( Read more... )

Ever convinced yourself you were in an altered state of mind, and it WORKED?
HOW exciting is THAT!???

Bagels ( Read more... )

So here I am, awake at night again. Feeling crazier than I've ever been...
When can I stop worrying? When can I stop going to school? When can I relax and enjoy my life?
This is destroying me.

Good morning, world.
It is so fucking early. It is my last semester of school. Ever?
It's up to me.