I'm embarrassed that I haven't written in this online journal for so long.. it has almost been a year, goddamn. And what a year it has been ( Read more... )

This is the headline on the paperwork I received when I reported to the probation office. Well fuck the people of the state of California ( Read more... )

I haven't slept a wink ( Read more... )

I was taking Chris out for sushi at sho mi. The place was packed so we decided to go to that sushi joint by Replay Records. We tried ordering one dragon roll so we could split it, but the waitress was being a bit bitchy and said we had to order more. She wouldn't budge, so we also ordered a california roll. I decided that the service was crappy ( Read more... )

I haven't been in this new house long, but I already feel like I don't belong ( Read more... )

worst year of my life. easily.

i feel like a ghost. even i have forgotten about myself.

i'm moving soon and i don't know how i feel about it.

i haven't slept since new year's eve.
i wish i could sleep.

Here we go again. I can't believe how many times I've proven to myself to be the fuck up everybody thinks I am.

This has been a rough year.

I've been looking for a cure for years. Then I gave up on it for a while, now I don't know what to do ( Read more... )

My Tia Theresa from my dad's side of the family was in the hospital for weeks before they took her off life support last week. She died about a half hour later ( Read more... )

I stopped going to chemical dependency therapy about a week and a half ago. It took a fine song and dance to convince my mom that I didn't need it anymore. Now I've been trying to convince myself that it was the right thing to do ( Read more... )