I hurt someone who did not deserve it. They only expected the truth and I lied. I truly believe that they are better off without me. Their beauty and kindness should only have be met with the same if not greater. I was not able to be honest due to my poor decision making. No excuses. They are better off and will never know how much they changed my ( Read more... )

When i think of how i wanted to turn out, and how things really are, it makes me sick. the person i have turned out to be is someone i loath. i wish i could meet with Brent Callender one more time and time and just ask him where we went wrong. i have been all over the world, and i just feel terrible that he wasn't there to go with me. i knew he ( Read more... )

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if i could make u see my way, and i'd die for u tomarrow, if u'd come to me today.... i'll sing a song of saddness, about the girl with the happy face, and dance upon the water, with no ripple or a trace................ i dont think so..............

i thought i could make a difference and possibly help someone.... i may or may not have......but the bottom line is i gave my life for the thought of patriotism, when i say i gave my life i did. i am not living any more. i do not have a choice of what to do. i do not what people to mourn i want them to hate me and prove to them i am not worth a ( Read more... )

well i ve been blown up for the last time i was really badly hurt this time, but im comming home, it sucks especially because im in a wheel chair, but i dont know how people are going to look at me...........

i was on the gun.... i saw it go under the truck......next thing i knew i saw a flash of light...... i was out for about 30 seconds.... i droped down in to the humvee and everyone thought i was dead..... the "doc" was calling my name but i couldent hear, my head was ringing.....i thought i was dead..... when i came to..... and ....... the truck was ( Read more... )

well i just haven't been me for a while............ i have not been true to my self...........i am from downey...........i love punk rock........not that pop shit, or emo crap, i hate the scene..........but i love the music, the morals,the speed(not drugs),and the idea of distruction of the system................. i think im on my way back i need ( Read more... )

i fucked up...........i cant take it back.......... i guess my words wont be enouph..........i'll have to show that im am serious..................

for w awhile i thought i was going to be in ireland for the rest of my days, i have come to realize that i will never be in one place for the rest of my days. it seems i will never be able to settle. "but thats just the price i pay, destiny is calling me." i have no idea what will happen in the next few moths, but one thing i do know is that iraq ( Read more... )