MIKE'S back. this time I'm going to make it right. I'm going to tell him how I feel.....I'm not going to let him get away this time. I've worked to hard. I just want him to know how I feel about him and how much he means to me. You peoples should wish me some luck cause I'm going to need it for when I tell him the truth.

I've been thinking which is bad......I'm depressed again to? I've been thinking of Mike witch is bad.....I thought I was starting to get over him? But I guess you cant get the one person that holds your life together out of your head. I'm also guessing that brandon told him that I didnt love him any more, cause the rummer going around that he still ( Read more... )

So, I'm writing in here again? I've been feeling really down.....Like I'm dead and no one knows it yet.....or they done want to know so they just keep living the life they once had? I dont know its weird? I'm sick......more this year then last.....I think its cause I think I really lost Mike this time....he moved to California. SHITY......Eric is ( Read more... )

Me and my brother are no longer speaking....I never want to see him again. Why in the fuck would you believe your fucking friend over your own sister? I FUCKING hate Josh....little fucker.......this is why I like to be alone....Blood or not we grew up together.....fuck that kid....you put me through all that shit when I was little......then what ( Read more... )

My hair is going to be FUCKING purple!!! And I'm getting my mohawk BACK......I'm so fucking happy. it's going to be sweet! Oh I actually had fun yesterday......it's like the first time I've had that much fun this summer or any other summer......LOL......HAHAHA!!!! Ashley FUCKING call me I'm bored!! OH when i get of work I'm going to have SO much ( Read more... )

You said money can't buy me love and that's true
But money can buy me drugs so that's cool

I'm in the same fucking mess I was in like 2 months ago. I started cuting again, and I started doing drugs again and what's worse about it I'm steeling the drugs!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME???? I'm also not happy anymore. I really dont know why? It's like the life I once had is no longer there. I just can't what to leave this shit hole!!! I'm ( Read more... )

God! I've spent one day, one FUCKING day at my uncle's house and I all ready want to go home! I come home the weekends when I feel up to it? It's good to being away from home because my mind isn't on drugs or on my mom's drinking habits or on Mike. BUT this weekend my sis is talking me to Highland Greens to go to this guys house where Mike lived ( Read more... )

I'm fucked up! I can't sleep again, and if I do sleep I dream of my addiction, and wakeup sick! I fucking hate it....my veins are calling out they want it so bad! I can't, I CAN'T do it, it's going to kill me if I keep doing it! Ok, yes I used again after being clean for 2 weeks! FUCK ME!!! I'm a horrible person....I can't do anything in my life ( Read more... )

You told me you'd be here. You told me you'd help me with my problems. So I wouldn't do anything stupid again! I fucking hate you so much for leaving me here to rot. I never thought I'd have so much anger and hate toward one person that I love so much.I can't believe I fall for your look and charm all you caused me was pain. Yet I still go back for ( Read more... )