So I have completly gotten sidetracked from what I was writing about earlier but thats alright I ill just start some endless rambelings about what ever else is going on in my life.... good with you.. thats great ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here staring at a picture of my boyfirend and I on our first date on valentinesday of this year. We had been dating for a while before that but due to lack of funds and such we just hadn't managed to go on a for real date. well he finally had and we wnt to thsi truck stop up the road from the campus.... I know I know realy weird right ( Read more... )

So it's easter and I'm home for the first timein what feels like forever. Allot is going on latly ( Read more... )

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So I havent' written in forever but I feel the need to write or at least quazi up date you up date you on the goings on of my life, so yeah I've been verry busy and supper stressed but it's hopefull going to calm down soon ( Read more... )

How in so short a time can a blossom reach it's peak bloom ( Read more... )

This is what I have been described as ( Read more... )

It should feel like a great release to let go of something so shameful to tell of my secret and make it no longer my burden to bear. However it is quite the opposite I feel as tho I betray myselfand I turn myself in to the sly constable only condeming myself to more disection. The who and why of my misdeads escape me and afterwards seem so foolish ( Read more... )

I still find myseld putting up the phasod of joy. That maybe if I reaccustome myself to the day to day antics of my old thress ring circus things will some how appear alright. I don't know I often am caught in the transition from my reality to the act "part whatever" by those who truly try to know me best. When pised witht he spotlight my hear ( Read more... )

Last night I went out to Steak and Shake with a vey dear friend of mine. I was so excitd to sut get to talk with her. We got there and we sat from 8:30 untll about 2:30 in the moring before deciding that I should take her home (since she had classes the next morning ( Read more... )