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[reverend_betty]

There's a huge part of me that wishes I could be something other than so fucking happy or so fucking sad & just be _____________. Level, a line. But then there's a small voice that whispers, "you would never be content like that."

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[moonversion]

Hey girl. How are you doing? I've missed you.

[reverend_betty]

Mostly good. I moved back to my hometown & am staying with some friends. I've been busy trying to get a 3d job. Hopefully soon, but I'm so lazy it's hard to get samples together ;)

I've missed you too, but you know how it is when you have to think about things & figure out what you're doing with yourself. I've been both forced & inclined to do a lot of soul searching about who I am & who I want to be.

[moonversion]

Yeah, I know how that is. :) It's something you just have to do.

Give me your address, I want to send you stuff-- I'm going to Japan in January.

[reverend_betty]

ohhohhhohhh! Japan? You lucky girl! I'll email you my addy :D

[reverend_betty]

Hmmm, good point. When I do feel an absence of emotion it's always given me the creeps- that kind of dead feeling.
I think contentment would be incredible. I really hope it's in my immediate future :)

[reverend_betty]

oh, & thank you very much! *blush*blush*blush!*

[zenseer]

I missed seeing you on LJ, Rev. I know what you mean about those highs and lows. It can really help AND hurt in their own irritating ways. Glad to hear that you're still pursuing the 3-D thing, because the stuff that you strutted on LJ kicked the butt :)

[reverend_betty]

Thank Zen :) I just need(ed) an lj break. I still don't have anything interesting to say :/
Thank you about the 3d. When I finish my newest sample I'll post it :)

[kimcheepasta]

I know nothing but that which is extreme; right now, I'm very blue.

I need to get down to see you, Bill and L. sometime soon--I still wish to meet the two of you, and it's been far too long since I've seen her.

[reverend_betty]

:( I'm sorry to hear you're not doing well. The ups are great but the lows are a killer.
I would love to meet you. Bill & I are no longer together romantically, but we're still wonderful friends. He's an incredible person. I miss L too. I have to go up to the OC soon & do a big visit.

[uberreiniger]

That's a shame to hear about the split, but if it was amiciable then I guess all is well that ends well. Hopefully we'll hear more from you on a more regular basis now.

[reverend_betty]

very amicable. I hope I do get back into this a little more :)

[mossygreen]

Missed your presence here. These are the days of major highs and lows it seems...try to enjoy the ride and not worry too much.

[reverend_betty]

that's what I keep telling myself, to just enjoy the journey. But dammit, I'm such a destination person!