deep sadness

[rexisadog]

We lost a family friend friday. Josh was always pleasant with me. I joke with him and told him stories when I was a lad growing up working on cars. He was a friend of my nephew...Eli. They were best friends...always coming over here to download iTunes, play video games and mess with ring tones. He was just your average kid

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[okokenikas]

oh, I'm so sorry, Rex :(

[erinzdad]

when a young person dies, especially for no reason except loneliness and isolation, i always feel that i am no longer a part of the solution. I feel like i have failed at doing something that i don't even know what it is. i'm so sorry you have lost someone.

[rexisadog]

Yes...you can do nothing about it. You think that if you said something different to him or maybe you had done some kind of life illustration that the outcome would be different. But the truth is it has little to do with you. In this case the home "dyanamics" was too much for him and he did not have a belief system provided in the home. The one he did have which was a step-father he loved and knew was taken away from him by his mom. He protested that in death. I hope he is in a more loving environment now. I believe that God is a loving god. It has deeply effected our family. I just see kids in pain at times. Perhaps because I have no family of my own. But obviously I did not pick up on Josh's pain...I did not know the extent of his family situation until after the fact. If only one person had spoken with him that day...but sadly there was no one for him.