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[rhamiel]

i have nothing original to say. i COULD tell you how it feels to have finished my first year as a college student, or whether or not i feel older and wiser, or if i've had any epiphanies. but honestly, i don't think any of that really matters. i'm tired. i'm tired of so many things. don't get me wrong. i've had a wonderful year. and i AM going to

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[anonymous]

You spent most of your year hating the place, up until recently. But the way I look at it, you want to go home to the familiarity [although, both you and I kinda wanted to get AWAY from that in the first place]. Yea, home IS home - but what exactly does that mean? Yea, Cerritos is HOME, but you've spent most of your time at SC... so does that make SC home? Santa Cruz might not be where your family and house is but... you've made new family [friends] and you've lived in that environment for a while now so...

I have probably confused you more. Cos I sure am confused. Basically I am saying that the feeling you're feeling is normal.

Apologies...
--Eunice

[the_big_empty]

I think it does matter what you think and feel, especially if they drive your actions. I'd say the emotions and feelings behind an action are just as important as the action itself. I'd agree that society does stress actions over the emotions that cause them but is this necessarily right?

[xlunastarx]

I'm leaving Santa Cruz with many of the same sentiments. But I almost feel like if I go home, it'll be more upsetting. But, family is family, home friends are home friends, and, as your Eunice put aptly put it, HOME IS HOME. Home is where the head is.

I've spent much of this wondering if what I say/do/feel/want actually means anything. But I guess, if anything, it means something to me.

Ack, how cheesy. Let's pour a 40oz. on the corner for the homiez. Then shoot up the fuckers that killed them.