i have become an utterly faithless person. it has caused me to lose the person i love (loved?) more than anyone. i did not have faith in him to love me the way i needed to be loved so i ruined it all out of fear. did i think about how he needed to be loved? of course not, because i am selfish. and now i walk with a shadow over my head, living ( Read more... )

I have decided to make some changes, without anyone else telling me how I should act. I've been waiting for this internal motivation to make itself known! The past few weeks or so I've been trying to find pleasure in its simplest forms, not necessarily the purest of ways. But now I'm out to find joy...not just pleasure. I'm through with ( Read more... )

I've been in Memphis, TN since Sunday. Since then, let's recap what I've done ( Read more... )

Finally, it's OpShop weekend. The shows have been going very well. I'm impressed at how well it all came together. And today was the best I've ever sung the Bergere part, and it's the only time I had to perform it so, yay! I'm singing the Squirrel part for the 2nd time tonight and am very excited for our last show. But then we have strike, ( Read more... )

Baby since the day you came into my life ( Read more... )

i feel like i am running. i'm racing for something and i don't know what it is. maybe i'm just running away. just don't let me look back.

p.s. andy and i are through. the end.

It's good to be back at school, although there is a foreign exchange student from Brazil living w/my family at home now. I wish I could meet her in person ( Read more... )

eek i am so happy and am trying to figure out why ( Read more... )

eek i am so happy and i'm trying to figure out why ( Read more... )

I'm pretty much positive that I am over Andy. Maybe I'm riding the waves of giddiness that will fade soon but for now it's a definite feeling of relief. I can see him and not feel heartbroken. I can talk to him and not feel vulnerable or defensive. I thought it would take so much longer. He made it easier when he pierced his ears. Odd, I know ( Read more... )