I'm here. For many of you it is there, a place foreign to you, to me it is home. It's been nearly a year and a half exactly, and I have nothing to say that hasn't been said here already. For those of you behind the times, I am now at 'cicadadrone'. Thank you all for every little thing.

There are all these raw places in me that I don’t know are there until something agitates them. A word, a look, a feeling; the brush against me and don’t know what pain they bring on me. Gina has asked me who I am and who I want to be, both are unknown to me. I am a patch-work of impressions and imperfections, aspirations and crushing fears; there ( Read more... )

The fruit the avacado has its own website, the banana is green with unripeness and envy.

The party went great! WE toped out at 60 or so people and I think everyone enjoyed them selves. There was DDR, swimming, much ambiance with techno music. Seeing some people for the last time was sad, but getting to spend time with those close to me was worth the heart ache. My mom did a great job setting everything up, and Larkin played good ( Read more... )

Larkin took me to a cow field that lay hidden behind a church and the Glen Oaks neighborhood. Everything took on a detached feel, it was greay and the air was still and quiet. Dozens of dead trees scraped at the murky sky that shaded the scenery a slate blue, and a confused rooster crowed mutedly across the field. I was entranced, soaking in the ( Read more... )

These past few weeks I have been more myself then ever before. I laugh, I run around, there is such a fuel of impulse and joy. This is what I have been missing - a teen hood. I never had ridiculous excursions without purpose, or late nights watching obscure movies, I have never until now had an awkward date. Now, in the beginning of what could be ( Read more... )

I am now officially going to make Sarah my very own personal slave. Why? Because I love her that damn much but don’t want to go all the way to Massachusetts to tie the knot (and they aren’t even allowing out of state any more.). She is so full of this feeling that scarily enough feels a lot like something I have in me in my better times. Joyful - ( Read more... )

It hurts, to look at a man that way, and have him look away. I have his money in my bra still - and that makes me want to cry.

After I leave I have decided to change my journal. It was a management decision that we as a team feel will better represent what our company is about. My email will also be changing to match the LJ name, not because I think it’s that cool a name, but because I am lazy.

My name will be cicadadroneone word. And my email will be the same thing with ( Read more... )

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These things make me question if I am that varied in my personality, if these are that general, or if it it errily accurate.