i wish i was good enough for someone...

but mostly i wish i was good enough for myself

okay. that was nice. im done with school now thanks.

"we accept the love we think we deserve ( Read more... )

you know whats nice? that i do have friends who dont lie to me. it really makes me greatful. that when im sad or upset, they truly want me to feel better and they want to listen and commmiserate. i shouldnt focus on the fact that one person doesnt care about me as much as i thought they did. or that they dont understand how badly they hurt me. or ( Read more... )

I am an Intellectual


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so today while taking a shower and utilizing the opportunity of solitude in the atypical manner of cogitation, i was review the lastest turn of events in my life in general. and i was stewing, and turning my thoughts over and over, like meat on a spit... and then the water pressure goes down and the temperature drops. my first thought is ( Read more... )

i cant understand how every free thinking woman is not a feminist. or how people can not realize how close minded and objective they can be. the reason i so strongly advocate women's rights is many, many reasons. but theyre all true. and if you dont believe me then you are just ignorant. this isnt just an "unfair advantage" fight anymore. though ( Read more... )

i hate rejecting people. i avoid it as much as i can. i try my hardest to not do it, even if it means leading people on or being accommodating. i hate making feel bad especially when theyre such good people. there is one of my biggest flaws to date. i also hate confrontations that i know are going to end badly, which almost goes hand in hand with ( Read more... )

fuck obligations. i just realized that i dont have to do anything. i can hang out w/ whomever i want, date whomever i want, NOT date whomever i want, do as little work as i want, do as much work as i want, talk to people as much or as LITTLE as i want. shocking realization no? its quite liberating. and the fact that i know right now that i could ( Read more... )

why am i so...just imperfect? yes no one is "perfect" but their imperfections contribute to something that adds up. why am i so stupid, so unattractive, so angry, so cynical, so...flawed? so wrong?i try to change, but it seems to be ingrained on some deeply seated, fundamental level, that is so inaccessible to me and so evasive and enigmatic. i ( Read more... )