fuckin' up all over the place.

3 xmas and 3 new years with the same boy though, thats cute.

too bad i don't want to go, its gonna be a mess, and i fucked up another potentially great thing because i love pain fighting etc. i think i used to be nice at some point? thanks bb, i've broken you and in turn, you've turned me into you

what i got for my 20th birthday ( Read more... )

holyfuck, im 20 today

its so weird sometimes that people dont find birthdays to be a big deal? i think they're the hugest. its stupid cause mine are always miserable and i find some completely silly (lonely) reason to be in the worst mood, and its dumb cause i just want epic! and suprises! and lovelovelove! but, never have that. 2 years in a row of fighting with michael ( Read more... )

ch-ch-ch-CHANGES

"Your Travel Document

Hello Sandra,

Thanks for traveling with Orbitz. This e-mail confirms the ticket number(s) issued for the "Tampa 11/20/07" trip."

dgbserbzsn fn fsvabssnefbrva.ebulewrbn,jrveguishjersbjhbgtrhjsbhjtra. so much better than just giving me a ride home to montclair like last year. SO MUCH BETTER.

i bought all of this stuff for you to bake today. a bunch of brownie mixes, some cookie stuff and homemade waffles and a weird cheesecake thing that neither of us will ever touch. i got weird and almost baked an eggo the other day. fuck, why aren't you just here. the new jimmy AND the new armor for sleep suck, i got so mad. listen to someone elses ( Read more... )

i never realized having multiple closeclosebest friends is actually, pretty fucking difficult. as in, it absolutely rules but it's weird going from lots of alone time to heck none, distributing who what when where and trying to call alex furst and tell her everything at the same time? i've also never had so many close female friends that i adore ( Read more... )

i used to have more of these but alex furst lost them.

ps, amazing solutions to panic attacks? invading el vez and standing awkwardly not ordering drinks duhhh

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an open letter to my friends and myself ( Read more... )