(Untitled)

[rialc]

Perhaps I need to be less negative. At least towards myself. And what on earth possessed me to cause me to leave my home, where I had a life, friends and opportunities and come to a place where I am all but alone, know no one, or anything, and don't recognize my opportunities? I feel so confused about all this. What exactly does God want of me

Comments

[philios]

Hey sweetheart.
I miss you too. You know, I would say that in most of the painful or lonely experiences I've gone thorugh I've learned something so very valuable about myself and about God's love for me, and I doubt I could have learned these things if I hadn't made 'mistakes'. Not saying that moving there was a mistake or disobedient in any way, of course. I can say I wish you were here, but I know I wish what is best for you regardless. And besides, I don't know dese tings! But I do know that sometimes you can't appreciate things unless you leave them or unless you lose them. Does that make sense? God's really changed you (in my experience) and you and I have gone through some major over-hauls in the past few months and year, and change is usually a sign of life and growth. Don't worry. We love you, He does more than we can, and I will try to get some peeps together to come see you sometime, if we can find time away from school for the trip. I think it'd be fun and I'd love to see you, and I know a lot of other people who would too.

[rialc]

Thanks Stephie-butt, you are awsome. And you know what, you coming up here would be the absolute greatest thing on earth, since sliced bread at least! Drag that no good brother of yours, and Judson, and, and, everyone! Thanks for the encouragement, and I love you too.

[philios]

Sure, I shall try my best. Lemme give you a call or an email to find out wheres and whens and such stuff because I confess I have no practical knowledge of these things. :)

you sexy girl

[anonymous]

Clair? I'm guessing this is your live-journal, but if it's not- I apologize for the random note. Don't ask me how I found this, I just did- that's the thing about technology- you can appear anywhere (sometimes places you don't want to be). Anyways, you don't sound too happy. I miss ya- you are such a beautiful and intelligent individual, it made me sad to read your entry. I admire you for traveling outward and exploring the outside world. What's it like?? You have more balls than I ever WILL have. No one ever knows what's planned for them, everything just happens and we have no control over them. Just be patient and enjoy the time you have. Life is too darn short to have a negative attitude.
I don't have a live journal- so I'm sorry I'm leaving you an anonymous note. I hope you feel better. Clair, you're awesome! don't ever give up.
~Susan Foster
p.s. I hope you remember who I am :)I haven't talked to you in a while.

Re: you sexy girl

[rialc]

Hey Susan! Of course I remember you! How could I forget? I miss you a lot too. And yeah, I've been having a tough time, but I am getting better. Thanks for your encouragement, its always great to hear from people you think have forgotten about you. The west is alright. It is rediculously beautiful out here, but kinda lonely. *hugs* and I will talk to you later I hope!

[almostincognito]

Hey Sweety,
We all miss you but try to give Montana another chance. Seek God's face while you are there. Perhaps the reason you are in Montana is to get away from us, your support group, and to find support in Him alone. I can't give you any definate answers, because I do not know the divine will of God, but if you stay in His will, eventually, you will know. I love you Clair!

[rialc]

*hugs* I love you...

Hey girl

[drumgirl84]

I have to agree with everything that everyone has said. I know that a new place and new people can be scary at times. As for trusting God, I can't tell you how to trust him. I have hard times myself. I know that things happen and you find that you can't trust anyone. That's my biggest problem. I don't trust people a lot, let alone God. I do know one thing though. In all that things that I've gone through (and are going through) God has/is always there. Even when no one else is. I don't know if this helped or maybe I'm just babbling but know that I do love and miss u bunches. wish you could be here this weekend :( come visit soon!

Re: Hey girl

[rialc]

You better send me pictures or something!!! Congrats sweet heart, and know that I'm thinking of you... And thanks. I love you too!