[taking a break from fake!world for a while. give me a week or so.]

( meme )

Holy crap. WOW. Fucking...WHOA. Boys do not FLIRT with me. They do not. Yet one is? And I'm...flirting back? I'm FLIRTING ( Read more... )

Left Mike's today, am now in Texas, staying at a hotel and hanging out with Lydia tonight at her house. Her parents are home and are watching me like a hawk. I'm being polite, though, so they're leaving all of us alone, a bit. We're just watching a movie right now, with her friends. They're sweet girls, I like being here a lot ( Read more... )

Going to Russia tomorrow to visit Ty for the week. Should be fun, though I've never been to Russia and I'm not sure what I'm looking for there. Get drunk, maybe. Ty offered to find me "pretty Russian boys," but I'm thinking, "Um, maybe."

I don't even speak Russian. I only speak French. And Canadian-French at that.

I would like to visit Ty, though ( Read more... )

Feeling much better today. Not as...lost and...I don't know. Dumbfounded? Something like that. Woke up and didn't feel like life sucked so horribly. Um. Guess that's an improvement, right? I think it is. Something to that extent ( Read more... )

I have to say it. I do.

Mark, I was an asshole and I'm sorry. I shouldn't be fucking shit up. Because we did have a good time. And I don't want to lose that.

So. Moving on to other subjects. Um...well. That was the only subject for me to talk about. I'm gonna go shower, then maybe rent some movies. I had an urge to see The Exorcist last night. So ( Read more... )

fucking hate, fucking hate, fucking hate, fucking want to kill something. fuck. fuck. why won't huddy let me have some fucking alcohol?

fuck. fuck.

i'm thinking with a clearer head. and if i want to be absolutely rational, there's this ( Read more... )

we just broke up. i can't...believe it.

it's for the best. it fucking has to be. maybe we'll get back together and it'll be better, yeah? or maybe...we won't...and...and then i'd have to...

i can't think of that. i can't even imagine that. i love him too motherfucking much. just...once in a while, i...

no point now. we fucking broke up.