im in love...well maybe not love but deep deep deep like...lol...his name is justin hes really hot hes 19 and he has the most amazing personality :) i never in a million years would have thought that hed ever like me because well hes really hot and great and im well not....but apparently he does so im like in the best mood ever yesterday and today ( Read more... )

so much pressure building up inside ( Read more... )

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking.  Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will ( Read more... )

today i went to my NA meeting...there was a girl there who ive gotten to be friends with and she was having a really hard time...crying the whole works...today was the 2 year anniversary of her fiances suicide...it put into perspective a lot of things for me...no matter how bad things get killing yourself is never the answer...i mean it may not ( Read more... )

Sitting in silence ( Read more... )

life around me stays the same
when inside i slowly die
my soul
calling out your name
how many nights have i sat alone
dreaming of your face
as silent tears spill out of my eyes
i wish i were away
from all the pain and fear
wrapped in my loneliness
like a baby wrapped in blankets
when will this ever end
when will i have my life back again
i reach for your ( Read more... )

Your Existing Situation ( Read more... )

I don't know why...but I've been feeling very lonely lately.  It just feels like no one understands me.  I try and talk to my parents, but they just don't get it....my Dad keeps saying I just have to move on and get over it...but he doesn't understand how hard that is for me.  Every time I walk into my bedroom I feel suffocated and I can see ( Read more... )

"You think the dead we loved ever truly leave us? You think that we don't recall them more clearly than ever in times of great trouble? Your father is alive in you, Harry, and shows himself most plainly when you have need of him..." -Professor Dumbledore//Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

I am so sick of all this shit...GOD...I talked to Brittany.  And told her how I like Neil...not enough that I would go out with him or nething...just a little bit...I mean hes a nice guy.  And then she tells me that she doesn't mind and that she thinks I should go for it (which of course i wouldn't do neways) and then i see THIS in her journal ( Read more... )