so i've been putting it off for awhile now, and now i only have 6 more days left here. its so fucking surreal. its a plethora of emotions. im anxious, im excited, im scared, im reminiscent. i have already started packing my stuff up. its in the living room in a huge pile. i have been talking to my roomate, he seems like a pretty cool guy. this is ( Read more... )

i feel like alot of people have distorted thoughts about me. does anyone care to share theirs? honesty is the best policy!

i decided that im going to buy a polaroid camera for the summer. and ill be posting the pictures up here every few weeks to make a kind of photo-journal of my last summer in Rochester.

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im finally getting better; ive been sick for the better part of half a week. i have really been wishing that my thoughts were more fluid. instead they are more jumbled and it effects my intelligence. and on the subject of intelligence why the fuck have i not gotten my acceptance letter back? im starting to panic. on the brighter side i have a good ( Read more... )

christmas break is over, starting tomorrow i will be in a classroom going about my normal routine. i realized against my own will that everyday feels exactly the same to me, no matter if its a holiday it feels the same i still do the same things. this lack of new and fresh things is strangling me...slowly. this entire break was so awkward to me. i ( Read more... )

im currently having what alcoholics refer to as a "moment of clarity." im a senior this year and i have learned many things ever since school started. im very tired im constantly running around and doing something so therefore i dont really have the patience to deal with pettiness. just let things be; have fun. im leaving for college in about 7 ( Read more... )

today i kissed your ice cold forehead for the last time; before your casket was shut.

its so ironic that those moments when you feel like your so immersed in reality; it feels the most surreal. i sat there and watched her sleep, she wouldnt wake up. she occasionally moved her hand. her hearing is gone. the only thing i could do was whisper in her ear and tell her what i really wanted to say to her when she was still awake. that one ( Read more... )

so i finally confessed my secret. i feel alot better, my conscious is no longer eating away at my mental capacity anymore. im still a little bothered right now though. i think the only reason i could do it was because timmy was in nyc. i started my new job yesterday, it is not bad except i have to deal with the parksiders. ugh. come of them are ( Read more... )